Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD)

I wanted to add this:
My name is savannah and i have ocd, not the other way around. and i know there's no can't, i choose to obesse, i choose to be complusive, it's a choice, because of fear becaue of anxiety, it's a temporary fix to avoid dealing with the problem.

I'm not sure what kinda of person i am, well i kind of know but it's really cloudy right now. all i can clearly see are my problems, my fears, i can see those quiet clear. i think i've had ocd like symptoms in a disorder fashion since 05 but i had obessive tendencies since i was a kid just to deal with stress and anxiety.

the thoughts are the worst for me, i feel like i want to just drag them out of my head and i feel like they infect everything good around so i can't do anything i like because it will be infected with thoughts i don't want. and it's not just that, i feel like my mind is going so fast nothing can get into my brain anyway. the only time i feel better is when i can get out how i feel to someone who understands, i feel better for a little while and then the thoughts come back and there's no room for anything good. that's how i feel most of the time and i hate it and hate that i think it's never gonna get better, but i want it to be.

here's some stuff not related to ocd, at least i don't know so. I have the best aunt in the world, i can tell her anything and never feel like i'm being judged. I also have an amazing best friend, who has been with me all throughout highschool, she's moved away but we still talk all the time. I love nature and organics. i'm always thinking and theorizing.

here's some of the things on my life list:
take drumming, piano, tap and karate lessons, sky dive from somewhere, get rid of my t.v., learn to roller skate, get a bike, take a helicoptor ride over new york city(that's been on my list for a whie), learn sign language, shave my head, get a hug from oprah and become mentally and physically healthy.

all war, judgementalness, tomato juice, getting frustrated, summer and flies, organized religion and big government, ocd, inconsiderate behaviour, lies, not feeling safe, myself when i don't try.

Natural cures they don't want you to know about by kevin trudeau and the beauty myth by naomi wolf.

the mummy(1999), the mask, rush hour 1 and 2, blade 1 and 2, might morphin power rangers the movie, august rush, terminator 2, lords of dogtown, legally blonde, the lion king, titanic, casper, loose change(doc), batman begins, spiderman 1, mortal combat, a walk to remember, spawn(1997), panic room, jumunji, pocahontas, aladdin, the lion king, the swan princess, idol hands, good burger, excess baggage(1997), catch me if you can, school of rock, the forbidden kingdom, never been kissed, iron man, batman the dark knight,

photography, writing, philosophy, talking with friends, my life.

Obsessive Minds	OCD MEET UP!!