Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD)

I will be 40 this year and I live in a chaotic mess in my head. I suffer from OCD and Anxiety and sometimes it is Very Aggressive, and sometimes really Self Distructing. I have quit a lot of great jobs because I just can't seem to get it together. Not because I can't do the job, I just get so angry or scared and I end up revealing that I have OCD. I have VERY HIGH EXPECTATIONS of the people I live around and work with and often get bruised and angry if they don't fit what I think they should be doing. I am trying to find people that can help me understand a place for me to be able to just talk about things and not be judged. People think OCD and Anxiety are a way or some kind of excuse to my behavior when I can't control it. I don't like myself much but to other people I am so loved, have everything in the world, very...very blessed. But in my head NEVER enough I am always worrying...I am always busy, can't sit still. I could work from sun up to sun down and make no excuse for it. I am just tired and trying to find myself.

I love animals, tanning, exercising. I like to read when I can. I enjoy time on FB with my friends.

I don't like liars, or people that feel the need to start drama. I have enough of that in my head I don't need it in my life as well.

I love Christian music. And am a HUGE fan of the Back Street Boys and New Kids on the Block. I don't listen much to the new stuff, not into techno or rap. Simple and fun!

I don't really have a book, I read my bible. I also have a couple of self help books on OCD.

My favorite movies in this order always: Say Anything, Titanic, and The Notebook.

I love crafting, and walking and tanning and spending time in my gardens. I love to work with Shelter groups and help dogs. I am a foster mom to cats and dogs sometimes.