I
know
CBT
works
and
I
have
been
trying
to
motivate
myself
to
follow
the
program
in
one
of
my
books
-
but
the
whole
process
always
feels
so
daunting
and
I
always
find
a
million
excuses
why
it's
not
a
good
time
to
start
doing
it.
With
a
little
inspiration
from
Jonathon's
(9-7-08
OCD
Cure)
forum
post,
I
realized
that
if
I
didn't
just
start
"today",
I
would
always
find
a
reason
not
to.
This
was
almost
a
week
ago.
I
began
to
take
responsibility
for
my
own
ability
to
try
to
cure
myself,
or
my
choice
to
let
myself
sink
deeper
into
my
ocd.
But
instead
of
thinking
of
starting
a
CBT
program
and
"intentionally"
exposing
myself
to
things
that
trigger
me,
I
thought
,
" why
not
try
today
to
resist
my
ocd
responses
to
triggers
as
I
experience
them
through-out
my
day."
God
knows
there
are
plenty
of
them,
why
create
more?!
So
I
tried
on
things
that
I
knew
would
be
easier
to
confront,
and
it
worked!
So
I
tried
again...and
again
building
confidence
to
keep
going.
In
just
a
few
days,
I
had
made
significant
progress!
I
was
forcing
myself
to
live
with
uncertainty
and
feel
the
anxiety
-
instead
of
running.
And
I
began
to
feel
powerful
-
which
is
not
a
feeling
I
have
been
familiar
with
for
a
long
time.
With
every
little
victory,
it
is
getting
easier
because
my
brain
is
being
retrained
to
react
differently.
I
still
have
quite
a
way
to
go
before
I
can
completely
tackle
some
of
my
most
difficult
fears
but
I
am
actually
moving
forward!!!
I
have
learned
that
I
can
be
happy
making
small
steps
forward
and
it's
ok
when
I
slip
because
I
can
turn
myself
around
and
start
again
-
because
I finally
know
the
way
-
and
more
importantly,
I
trust
it!
I
wrote
this
in
the
hopes
that
thinking
about
CBT
like
this
might
help
someone
else
too.
Love
to
all....Sherri
Sherri
