Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD)

July 23, 2008, 8:05 pm

Hi Lexi,I havent spoken with you before but this is what I have found helps me alot.My thinking is a part of my makeup just like hearing.So me and my thinking are not one in the same.My mind will do what it likes,it is a proven fact.When I can become they observer of my minds content I see how it operates on its own.I can see what my mind does and do not have to judge or attach to the content,its just doing what a mind does,sit back and watch your thoughts and mind at work and seethem for what they are, thoughts and only thoughts.There is no need to attach to any of it.There are common themes in peoples thoughts good,bad ,sad,glad.It is possible and I do it,to label these thoughts when they come and see them for what they are just thoughts no need to attach to them,they are not us they are just our mind doing what it does,producing thoughts.Awareness of presence allows you to see these thoughts and many other things in life like suffering as an illusion,they only hurt when we attach to them.Just watch them when they come from way over here and see how far away they really are,it gives you space to be who you are,a peaceful being. sincerely,Trudger

July 22, 2008, 1:43 am

hi lexi ty for the message

i am not bad just now kind of racing thru without a moment to stop pause n relax, i find that very difficult, always planning and thinkin out probs, i should be a risk assesment officer lol!!!!! hope this message finds you well mwah xxxxxxxx

April 28, 2008, 1:13 pm

I really did not know that worrying a lot about the past, future and stupid things is part of OCD. I also feel the same way but taking meds is helping me somewhat. I guess a lot of people feel that same way as I do.

March 28, 2008, 6:34 pm

I spent about 30 years not living in the moment.  That living up to standards thing,  pretty much left me doing nothing but wondering about the standards.  I was dreadfully slow to realize that.  Not the first thing I have been dense about.  Wishing you well, and trying to make up for lost time..

March 5, 2008, 11:27 am

I am just reading this comment and boy can I relate.  I guess I just never really thought the excessive worrying was the same as some of my clear cut OCd  problems.  I would like to write more but I have to go.  I'm glad I'm not alone!

February 21, 2008, 6:47 pm

i can relate to that. I'm always either dreamin about how I want the future to be and regretting what I didn't do and did do....I dream way too often rather than actually going out and living and taking actions on the things I want. It sucks

January 25, 2008, 11:04 am

dear lexie......amen to that....

 

i always feel as if i shold be doing something ....i can't relax either...if i am in the 'moment"  I catch myself and than feel really quilty that i am not saving the world........or cleaning or jst getting out there and doing something productive....

it is made worse by the fact i am not rich and can't just hop a plane and travel, or the gas to drive around endlessly to be busy....

 But i am at the point were i hate being home cause i cant enjoy it.....

I think somewhere along the line we either feel as if we don't deserve to be "in the moment" and enjoying it.....or we fear as if someone will judge us, as if we are doing something wrong....and that is really not the case

no one thinks we are wrong for enjoying a moment or judging us .....in realilty...even if they were judging us..........who the hell cares what they think anyway.................we don't need to please the world..!!!!

I use to not run the dishwasher before 7pm cause i thought it was abnormal..........i had to go ask people when they run thier dishwasher.....when the dam thing is full....they said...."  

 

that helped me to realize i am just as "normal" as everyone else..!!!..here if you need me...annie

January 24, 2008, 2:43 pm

I am the same Lexi -I am always agitated and cannot relax. Watching TV helps and using my PC takes my mind off things abit.

Good Luck- you are not alone. God Bless.  Love from Jonie x

 

 

December 10, 2007, 8:04 am

Hi. And thank you for visiting my page....  You are not alone in that

feeling of needing something to look forward to... and thereby missing

the moments.  Intrusive thoughts seem to keep us from enjoying what is now.  You are young and seem to have a good grip on most. Don't

let depression ruin your moments.  I have a saying that ; depression is anger without enthusiasm!!!  You are just fine.  Life is just throwing

some interesting moments your way....   deal.  that is our only choice, albeit it is often hard to do.... keep trying.  happy holidays. enjoy!!!!

 

shari

December 10, 2007, 6:38 am

You said you're married.  How does marriage help/hinder your state of mind? dvdmc16@ont.com

December 9, 2007, 8:04 pm

First, thank you for the welcome message. Second, I can totally relate to your blog. Its funny when people tell me not to worry. I laugh and say, "That's like telling me not to breathe". I simply cannot. I have my good days and my bad ones. I find that doing something enjoyable helps to keep my mind from wandering. I get really into drawing/painting. Great therapy! Sometimes, simply coloring with my son in a coloring book helps. I just intently focus on what colors I am going to mix and how great it will look. My mind is so occupied with the actionof  coloring and thinking what my next color combination will be, that it keeps me from "going to that overthinking place" because my mind is busy doing something I enjoy. Sometimes watching a funny show/movie can help put me in a lighter mood or talking it out. I am very vocal about my worries and I am lucky to have a wonderful boyfriend who helps alleviate them. I also started back on the prozac. Definitely helps me to relax!! Hope this can help!

December 9, 2007, 7:17 pm

This is something that I can relate to as well. It's like you are stuck in your own mind, constantly thinking and worrying of things that have happened in the past or things that may happen in the future. It creates a sort of un-reality, that I do agree, is very uncomfortable and not fun at all to go through. What you may want to try to do is practice stopping these inconsistent, irrational thoughts by just letting them float in and out, know that feelings will never be facts. Start to ask yourself what is really bothering you.  The mind has a not so wonderful ability to create unpleasant thoughts and worries in order to distract us from things in our lives that we do not want to deal with. But dealing with unpleasant things in our lives is 10 times better than staying stuck in either the past or future. Unpleasant thoughts and worries are normal, but once you begin to realize that they are not what defines who you are, you can devalue them and they will eventually disappear. Just know that everyone worries, people like us are just a little bit more sensitive to it. :)

December 4, 2007, 1:25 am

I can relate to this too.  I spend so much of my time in fear of/worrying about the future.

November 27, 2007, 8:38 am

I can really relate to this. I worry about the past and the future but, am rarely in the present. I have been stopping myself from doing this and trying to focus on the now. I hope this will be more automatic with practice.

November 18, 2007, 2:10 pm

I hope you can let go and live for today.  I am a 66 year old retired school teacher with a great family and lots of fun friends.  But like you I can't really enjoy them as I am always worrying about what I said, was it perfect enough?  Was I looking my best?  What should I have said or done differently.  I also worry about ridiculous things.  Have your read Eat, Pray, Love.  It has helped me. 

August 29, 2007, 6:40 pm

i could really relate to this ....but learning to try n let gooo. this one phrase is stuck in my head from a book i read recently...ARE YOU WILLING TO ACCEPT UNCERTAINTY?? i know its like a troubling thought but its the reality of life..nothing is certain.. if we get to peace with that ... well its been a good start for me at least.

August 26, 2007, 10:26 am

You are not alone! And apparently neither am I. Why can't we just have regular thoughts, like most people. I just started meds and so far no results. I would love to know what it's like not to have OCD, but I don't know if that will ever happen. My brain is so full of these stupid thoughts that I don't even want, that I don't have room in my brain to remember things I've just done, or form opinions about simple things. Grant it, I may be making this sound more extreme than it actually is. But it certainly sucks! Do you have these problems too?

August 26, 2007, 8:48 am

i,m really glad that i have read your comments. I have been offered antidepressants and will not except them i really don.t want to go down that road. i,m haveing couselling at the momment she comes to my home once a week Is it working I dont't know. She seams to think my boyfriend does not help matters. I have just moved in with him about two and half months ago things are not good. If any one has any constructive ideas i'm all ears.

August 26, 2007, 4:12 am

i feel exactly the same way. you're not alone.

April 27, 2007, 6:04 pm

I feel the same way, I feel like I'm always worried about something. I also am always thinking about tommorrow or the next day. I can never just enjoy the moment. I hear ya!