Hi
There:
I
guess
I
am
just
being
impatient,
but
the
bdd
does
not
stop.
I
see
a
new
doctor
in
a
few
weeks
and
hopefully
we
can
do
something
with
the
medication,
but
it
is
a
little
frustrating
when
you
put
the
work
in
and
you
do
not
see
the
results.
Granted
I
may
be
anxiety
ridden,
because
I
went
to
doing
nothing
to
a
lot,
but
I
am
just
PISSED.
I
trying
having
a
positive
attitude,
but
truly
I
just
want
to
cry.
I
am
working
about
15-20
hours
a
week
for
a
boy
who
is
mildly
autistic.
I
have
been
doing
exposures
like
taking
him
the
the
playground
and
such,
and
I
try
grounding
techniques
like
looking
at
things
on
the
playground,
but
there
is
so
much
anxiety
when
I
see
other
people
at
the
playground.
I
actually
start
another
job
babysitting
for
a
little
boy
about
8
hours
next
week.
And
I
am
doing
some
home
health
care
jobs
on
the
side.
I
also
have
a
few
other
babysitting
jobs.
I
have
to
be
honest,
I
am
28
and
my
career
is
"babysitting"
I
feel
a
littler
pathetic.
I
do
run
with
"front
runners"
the
gay
running
group
on
Saturday.
I
have
to
be
honest
about
this
to,
they
give
some
gay
people
a
really
bad
name.
Everything
is
always
sexual
and
I
have
not
seen
such
a
group
of
vain/shallow
idiots
in
my
life.
I
have
decided
not
to
go
as
much.
I
am
also
joining
a
bowling
league
starting
this
Friday.
If
this
bdd
could
take
a
back
seat
I
would
live
a
somewhat
normal
life.
I
am
just
PISSED.
And
losing
patients.
Justin
