I
missed
an
appointment
with
my
therapist..
I
just
cannot
motivate
myself
off
the
couch.
Even
if
I
did,
it
is
getting
more
and
more
difficult
to
leave
the
house.
I
knew
this
would
happen.
I
am
hermit,
hear
me...
well...cry.
I
am
mourning
the
loss
of
The
Routine.
Some
may
think
I
am
joking,
but
I
am
not.
It
is
raining.
I
like
rain,
but
today
it
makes
me
sad,
depressed
even.
No,
I
do
not
want
all
your
pearls
of
wisdom,
or
well
meaning
advice.
I
would
like
to
get
my
feelings
out
and
this
seems
to
be
as
good
as
any
vehicle
to
do
so.
I
want
to
talk
to
people,
but
they
are
all
gone.
Flushed
away
with
my
terminated
job.
I
don't
make
friends
easily.
I
tend
to
push
them
away.
People
cannot
be
trusted
not
to
hurt
me,
so
I
stay
away.
I
am
tired..
so
very
tired.
If
it
werent
for
my
kid,
I
would
wish
to
sleep
that
never
ending
sleep.
It
sounds
so
welcoming,
peaceful.
People
keep
leaving
me
messages
on
Facebook..
your
an
amazing
person,
you
will
find
something
better!
If
they
only
knew
how
hard
it
was
for
me
to
fit
in
to
their
version
of
normal,
to
behave
like
everyone
else..
In
some
ways,
I
am
so
relieved
that
I
do
not
have
to
pretend
anymore.
I
also
am
scared
out
of
my
mind
that
if
I
find
something
new,
it
will
be
so
much
more
difficult
to
fit
in,
to
behave
in
the
confines
of
the
socially
accepted
norm.
I
am
so
very
tired.
