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Mood: Lonely
Date: Apr. 24, 2008
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Yes, lonely, but happy and full of life bc I have found this site and you guys are so warm and welcoming and accepting. Im used to those people who are judgemental and hypocritical and i live another life in order to fit whats expected of me from those ppl, bc unfortunately i cant avoid some of them lol (like my family, my boss, my clients, and most people ive ever met). Its tiring having to put up fronts all the time to mold to your circumstances, and Ive been doing it for so long Im not sure I even know who I am: theres the professional me, then theres what i choose to let social buddies,family and acquaintances know of me,then there's who I think I am. Finding this site and having others to share aspects of what i know i am, is a big step toward healing all the broken joyces inside me and mostly toward LOVING ME and letting the beautiful woman with great potential come out already, instead of living every moment taming, consoling and being at the mercy of this angry, pissed off, destructive  little girl in me.  

So thanks to all of you.

 






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From: Simko755
April 26, 2008, 1:17 pm
I totally know what you mean about putting up different fronts for different types of relationships.  It is nice to have a place to go where I can be myself.  But sometimes, I feel like I have put up so many fronts, I get confused to who I really am.  I mean, I know what my OCD wants, but the real me gets lost somewhere.  But thanks for the post, I enjoy reading it because it mirrors my life so well.  I guess the underlying desperation isn't something to "enjoy" reading, but hey, let's not feel sorry for ourselves too much, if you know what I mean.  I hope you are having a good weekend. Josh

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