HI
ALL
MY
OCD
FRIENDS!!!!!!!
It's
been
so
long
since
I've
chatted
with
you
all,
and
yes,
I
do
miss
you!
Sorry
I've
been
gone
so
long
although
it
was
good
for
me.
I
needed
to
stay
away
for
a
while
and
concentrate
on
other
things.
Hope
this
note
finds
you
all
well
and
that
you
are
all
keeping
up
the
fight!
I
was
doing
really
well
for
a
while...stable
on
meds,
etc.
Life
has
gotten
a
bit
unstable
and
stressful
as
it
does
for
all
of
us
from
time
to
time
and
the
OCD
has
flared
up
again.
It's
okay
though...nothing
like
last
summer.
I
just
have
a
lot
going
on
and
I'm
trying
to
hold
it
all
together.
Guess
I'll
give
you
an
update
since
many
of
you
already
know
intimate
details
about
my
life
and
past.
So
here
is
the
lowdown:
Tonight
I'm
on
because
I
can't
sleep...have
a
bad
cold
and
it
was
a
rough
day.
Too
much
in
my
mind.
Found
out
this
morning
(via
3
hour
long
phone
call
from
my
mom),
that
my
2nd
cousin
Scotty
passed
away
in
a
car
accident.
He
was
only
19
years
old.
Joined
the
military
about
a
year
ago
and
was
in
special
training
in
CA.
He
was
driving
himself
and
2
friends
back
to
Arizona
in
his
first
car
ever
(owned)
and
crashed.
We
don't
know
the
details
yet
but
I
do
know
that
Scotty
was
killed
and
the
other
2
are
in
critical
condition.
I'm
still
a
bit
in
shock
I
think.
I
remember
him
as
a
young
boy
before
I
moved
away
from
AZ
8
years
ago...sad
that
I
didn't
keep
in
better
touch.
Too
young...
Well,
that,
and
I'm
worried
about
my
boyfriend
who
was
wandering
around
at
night
by
himself.
I
know
that
seems
silly
to
worry
cause
he
is
a
guy,
but
I
still
am.
His
cellphone
died
so
he
hasn't
called
me
back
yet.
Incidentally
I
am
planning
to
move
to
Columbus,
Ohio
in
June
to
be
closer
to
him.
He
lives
there
and
has
a
beautiful
7-year-old daughter
there
that
he
has
joint
custody
with.
(Former
marriage.)
He
is
a
Chess
Master.
He
plays
tournament
chess
and
teaches
chess
for
a
living.
He's
a
very
interesting
person
and
I'm
smitten.
I
hope
he's
"the
one"...I
think
he
is.
We
accept
each
other
as
we
are
and
we
love
each
other.
I
know
young
love
always
sounds
naive,
and
probably
is.
Warnings
always
come
from
my
parents...but
I'm
an
adventurous
girl
and
I'm
going
to
give
this
a
chance.
Still
got
it
in
me
to
try
again!
As
for
my
future...hoping
to
be
a
wife
and
stepmother
in
the
not-so-distant-future,
but
besides
that...I
plan
to
get
a
solid
job
with
insurance
benefits
once
I
move.
Hope
to
work
for
a
hospital
or
perhaps
another
insurance
company
(Nationwide
is
there
I
believe).
My
lofty
goal
of
quitting
my
job
and
just
going
to
school
full-time
all
while
living
off
private
student
loans
proved
to
be
not
so
wise.
I
am
a
few
classes
closer,
but
in
quite
a
bit
of
debt
now...I
owe,
I
owe,
so
back
to
work
I
go.
But
maybe
if
I
can
get
a
job
at
a
hospital
perhaps
they
will
pay
for
me
to
go
back
to
school
and
become
an
RN.
That
is
my
hope,
and
I
know
it
does
happen
sometimes.
We'll
see.
For
now
I
have
tons
to
do!!!
Lots
of
preparations
for
moving...trying
to
earn
$
as
a
waitress
for
the
move
and
living
expenses,
and
trying
to
wrap
up
the
spring
semester
of
school.
Quite
busy
indeed.
All
in
all,
I'm
alright
though.
Tired,
but
I
hope
I'll
be
fine.
Just
trying
to
keep
going,
make
the
best
decisions
I
can
from
day
to
day,
and
keep
wishing
for
stability.
Hopefully
I'll
have
it
someday...
Well,
I'm
tired
and
going
to
try
to
sleep
again
I
think.
I
wish
you
all
the
best!
Cari
