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Date: Nov. 15, 2008
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-I'm a little "rough around the edges" right now.

Over the past few months I've had a lot going on...my wife was "laid off", issues with son at school. My OCD has been pretty under control, but I'm sliding a bit and I don't like it. I want my confidence back, I know how to handle my OCD, but I'm having a hard time with it when it spikes. I'm working two jobs so I'm a bit tired, and I have a harder time dealing with my OCD when I'm tired. My wife got an interview for Tuesday, it's very promising, so the hope that I have for this working out is kind of hard to deal with...I don't even want to think about it in case it doesn't go well. This has been so hard on her to be "laid off"...I hate to see her feeling bad about herself and she has been. So this is where the "new stress" has come from. Does anyone ever feel the ocd just a low level that seems to be constant...kind of like an annoying hum in the background. I think that's the best way to describe it right now. I can't stand my intrusive thoughts...I just need to refocus and battle harder. We have fires here again...hoping for them to get them under control sometime this weekend. Can anyone tell me what they do when battling intrusive thoughts? Mine always center around hurting someone...which is about a painful thought as I could have. Hope your all well, I know a lot of us are in the same boat.

Blue






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November 15, 2008, 10:33 pm

So sorry to hear about these things Blue, Hang in there, This Too Shall Pass {this time period}.



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November 15, 2008, 2:31 pm

Hmmmm, Yes, Blue, I know that constant hum in the background that you are talking about quite well, and that it a very good way to describe it. That fear of hurting someone is definately as bad as it gets with OCD...I have a hard time thinking I might not be as vigilent as I should be with safety precautions and someone I love will take the fall for my error.

I can  tell you , since you asked ,that way I battle intrusive thoughts is to quickly counter them with the truth. I tell myself the truth, I write down the truth, I immerse myself in it.

Example:  Say I start to fear that I brought X into the house and my family are now in danger because of my carelessness. I start by reminding myself of the truth.1.  God is in absolute control. If I brought something harmful into our home, then a loving God allowed it . 2. Even if I did bring X into the house, my God who loves me is going to use this situation to bring me eventual good and Himself glory. 3. Not all suffering is bad. I just see it as bad from my limited point of view. 4. My goal should not be to live a pain-free life. 5.I can trust the man who died for me to carry me through all of life's pain, and use it for good.

I have to use scripture to counter the darts of fire that get sent my way. I believe in Satan , as well as God, and feel that he is fully aware of my weak spots and uses many situations to try to trip me up. But Satan knows that God has already won the ultimate battle and that God is on my side. When God is for us, who can be against us?

 None of this is meant in any way to be offensive. I know very little about what you might or might not believe. I just know you are a good man asking others for help and this is what helps me.

My best to you.....and to let you know, this cancer battle has been hard, but has been the roadway to many blessings I could not gain any other way. Stay strong, Blue.



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