I
find
im
struggling
with
ocd
thoughts
at
the
moment.
They
are
way
more
obvious
now
that
most
of
my
physical
rituals
have
gone.
We
had
this
talk
on
friday,
where
we
had
a
real
concentration
camp
survivor
come
and
talk
to
the
sixth
form
and
year
9's.
I
had
the
most
horrible
thoughts
going
through
my
head
as
they
showed
us
this
video
of
Auschwitz,
which
weren't
even
what
i
wanted
to
think!
Things
like
"oh
but
they
deserved
it"
and
much
worse;
horrible,
cruel
thoughts
which
were
completely
wrong
and
not
what
I
believe
at
all.
I
can't
do
this
anymore.
They
are
becoming
unbearable,
to
the
point
where
they
are
disrupting
my
everyday
life.
A
few
of
my
friends
know
about
my
ocd,
and
ive
tried
to
talk
to
them
about
it
but
it's
impossible
to
even
approach
the
subject,
as
it
can
sometimes
even
be
sexual
thoughts
particularily
in
like
my
church
youth
group
and
things.
They
plague
me
and
come
up
at
the
most
inappropriate
moments.
It's
difficult
to
think
"it's
the
ocd"
rather
than
"I
should
be
locked
up,
im
such
a
horrible
person".
I
feel
very
lost
and
confused.
I
can't
fully
open
up
to
anyone
about
it
and
i
have
no
way
of
getting
medical
help
because
my
parents
don't
know
i
even
have
ocd
and
the
'school
counsellor'
can
only
do
so
much.
Looks
like
it's
another
year
of
ocd
until
i
reach
university
and
can
get
help....that
is
if
i
can
hold
out
till
then.
