I
know
i
rearly
write
on
anything
good,
but
if
i
had
something
good
to
write
about
i
would.
Everything
is
so
messed
up!
I
thought
things
were
getting
better,
but
wow!
i
was
so
wrong.
Now
it's
like
i'm
being
torn
20
different
ways
all
at
once...every
one
just
keeps
pushing
and
pulling
and
prying
it's
making
me
crazy...i'm
trying
not
to
let
it
seem
so
bad
to
my
boy
friend.
I
dont
want
him
to
think
i'm
crazy,
but
i
din't
sleep
at
all
last
night
and
it's
getting
late
tonight...looks
like
it
will
be
day
3
before
i
sleep
again...He
knows
something
is
up
but
i
can't
talk
about
it...i
can
write
about
it
some
what
here,
but
when
i
try
to
actually
"talk"
about
it
i
feel
like
very
one
will
just
think
i'm
crazy
and
weak.
I
just
dont
know
what
else
there
is
left
for
me
to
do.
Pills
worked
for
like
2
days....therapy
dosen't
help....i''m
really
looseing
it
and
i
dont
want
to
...not
again.
I
feel
so
STUpid...sitting
in
the
datk
late
at
night
on
a
computer
because
i'm
so
f@cked
up
that
i
can't
talk
to
anyone
in
person.
This
web
site
is
like
my
only
outlet
and
every
one
here
has
been
so
great
and
i
love
all
of
you
for
it,
If
it
wasn't
for
this
i'd
have
lost
it
a
while
back....i
dont
want
to
sound
like
a
puss,
but
if
i
didn't
have
my
daughter
i
swear
i'd
just
drive
my
car
off
a
bridge.
She's
all
i
have
and
i
can't
even
do
right
by
her,
why
have
i
screwed
up
everything?
My
whole
life....i
just
f@cked
it
up
over
and
over
and
over....and
over.
Now
i'm
so
screwed
up
all
i'm
good
for
is...well
f@ck...not
much
if
any
thing.
Well
i
dont
know
why
i
felt
i
had
to
say
all
this
sh*t
but
i
can't
say
it
in
words
so
i
had
to
type
it
i
guess.
All
of
you
have
been
so
great
i
dont
know
what
i
would
do
if
i
didn't
at
least
have
this
because
it's
the
only
way
i
can
express
myself
for
real
without
feeling
judged.
LOL....just
another
one
of
my
rants
i
guess
thanx
for
listening.....i'm
going
to
go
drink
a
bottle
of
nightquil
and
a
pack
of
sleeping
pills
and
have
a
beer,,,,maybe
then
i
can
go
to
sleep....i
hope.
) {{{huuggss}}}
