I
hate
being
labeled
with
a
mental
illness(ocd).
I
feel
like
i
will
never
be
able
to
fully
feel
like
my
old
self
since
i
know
i
have
ocd.
I
constantly
think
about
it,
it
goes
over
and
over
in
my
head
that
i
have
ocd.
I
think
i
could
actually
feel
100
percent
back
to
myself
if
i
could
just
get
over
the
fact
that
i
have
what
i
have,
which
is
ocd.
OCD
has
taken
so
much
away
from
me
in
the
short
time
that
i
have
had
it.
I
first
realized
i
had
ocd
after
giving
birth
to
my
son
1
year
ago.
I
feel
like
ocd
took
the
time
that
was
suppose
to
be
special
between
me
and
my
newborn.
I
was
such
a
nervous
wreck
in
the
hospital
and
when
i
got
home
that
i
barely
even
remember
my
son
being
a
newborn.
I
feel
like
i
lost
that
precious
time
because
now
he
is
one
years
old
and
walking.
I
look
at
him
and
i
feel
quilty.
i
also
have
a
6
year
old
and
i
look
at
him
and
feel
very
quilty
because
his
whole
life
changed
1
year
ago
when
i
gave
birth
to
his
brother,
he
wasn't
the
only
child
anymore
and
his
mother
was
a
different
women.
I
thank
God
that
i
am
feeling
more
like
myself
now,
but
still
feel
like
i
was
robbed
of
1
year
of
my
life.
Sometimes
the
OCD
makes
me
doubt
who
i
am,
my
love
for
others,
my
religion
and
many
other
things
in
my
daily
life.
OCD
is
a
demon
and
i
will
never
give
up
the
fight
to
beat
him.
