Hi
all.
Hope
this
doesnt
ruin
anyones
day
as
usually
i
like
to
be
positive
but,
sorry,
I
cant
be
today.
I
just
had
enough
now.
I
feel
in
some
aspects
I
am
ok
with
ocd,
i
decided
with
my
hoarding
that
as
mum
offered
to
clear
all
my
things
I
have
in
the
loft,
I
am
going
to
go
away
for
a
couple
of
days
and
allow
her
to
rid
them.
Only
problem
is,
I
feel
its
just
a
cycle
because
I
will
want
to
keep
certain
items,
if
I
dont
-
I
become
really
upset,
I
feel
like
this
object
is
someone
close
to
me,
and
throwing
it
away
will
be
like
telling
a
friend
they
are
unwanted.
It's
all
becoming
too
much
for
me,
I
am
happy
outgoing
Mandy
to
my
friends
and
family,
but
when
I
am
alone,
there
is
a
complete
contrast.
I'd
never
commit
suicide
or
anything
as
my
family
and
friends
mean
too
much
for
me
to
do
that,
but
some
days,
I
just
feel
so
upset
at
life,
and
I
know
I
must
try
be
positive,
and
like
said,
I
normally
am,
just
lately,
it's
all
too
much
and
I
dont
want
to
be
this
person
with
ocd
anymore
:(
xxx
