I'm
facing
the
hard
decision
of
signing
my
parental
rights
away
to
my
7
yr
old
son
William
whom
has
been
in
the
Temp
guardianship
with
a
good
friend
of
mine
3
1/2
4
yrs
-
because
the
last
3
1/2
yrs
4
yrs
I've
been
having
to
take
care
of
my
mother
who
is
61
and
suffers
from
a
number
of
medical
problems
-
DSS
has
made
it
quite
clear
that
no
matter
the
6
1/2
months
of
assesments
Jeremy
and
I
take,
that
because
of
the
fact
that
my
son's
Temp
guardian
who
is
no
longer
his
Temp
guardian
any
more,
but
his
legal
Guardian
now,
because
of
the
fact
my
son's
legal
guardian
no
longer
wanted
to
take
care
of
my
son,
yet
wouldn't
be
a
woman
about
it
and
just
help
me
revoke
the
Temp
guardianship
In
FL
which
is
where
the
Temp
guardianshp
papers
were
drawn
up,
but
yet
Leslie
my
son's
legal
guardian
,
she
didn't
want
me
to
have
him
back
because
she
feels
that
the
man
whom
I've
been
with
for
7
1/2
almost
8
yrs
now,
is
mentally
unstable,
a
drug
dealer
ect
ect
,
she
went
and
took
it
upon
herself
to
call
DSS
and
then
make
a
false
report
that
Jeremy
whom
was
like
a
father
to
my
son
,
the
same
man
whom
2
weeks
into
our
relationship
took
over
the
role
of
being
a
father
to
my
son
-
Leslie
told
DSS
that
Jeremy
threw
my
son
through
a
wall
when
he
was
2
1/2
to
3
yrs
old,
that
Jeremy
molested
my
son
ect
ect
-
She
filed
that
false
report
a
month
ago
just
out
of
the
blue-
I
had
tried
for
two
yr
to
revoke
the
Temp
guardian
from
Here
in
NC
,
I
called
ever
family
lawyer
in
the
phone
book,
none
of
them
would
take
my
case
because
of
not
enough
income
,
even
tho
I
told
them
straight
up
i
draw
social
security
disability
status
and
would
pay
them
in
payments,
another
reason
why
none
of
them
would
take
my
case
is
because
the
Temp
guardianship
papers
were
drawn
up
in
FL
,
so
there
for
I
would
have
to
get
an
attoreny
that
practiced
in
both
NC
and
FL
,
to
file
a
motion
with
the
clerk
of
court
and
then
have
the
case
transfered
to
NC
-
Leslie
apparently
got
wind
of
this,
she
then
sent
her
partner
/
girlfriend
,
oh
yes
she's
a
lesbian
and
has
exposed
my
son
to
so
much
toxicness
it's
not
even
funny,
well
she
sent
her
girlfriend
up
here
to
NC
in
January
of
this
yr,
I
didn't
know
they
were
back
in
NC
until
march
-
Leslie
cutt
me
off
from
my
son
a
yr
ago
,
her
whole
reason
for
that
was
because
of
Jeremy
and
the
way
he
handled
the
situation
when
we
made
a
trip
to
FL
for
me
to
try
to
get
my
son
back
-
I've
explained
to
DSS
that
this
girl
ran
with
my
child,
every
time
I
would
get
an
address
and
almost
track
her
down
,
then
she
would
move
and
change
addresses,
every
time
I
would
get
a
phone
number
,
a
cell
number,
by
the
time
I
called
it
to
get
intouch
with
her,
she
had
changed
her
number-
DSS
doesn't
believe
anything
I
have
to
say,
they
have
made
it
quite
clear
that
even
with
7
months
of
assesments
,
there
would
be
another
yr
before
I
could
even
get
a
supervised
visiation
with
my
son
,
on
top
of
the
another
yr
for
I
could
get
a
reunviction
with
my
son
-
simply
DSS
is
choosing
to
believe
what
has
been
writen
in
a
report
reguardianing
Jeremy,
his
past
criminal
record,
his
past
drug
history,
even
tho
he
hasn't
been
in
troble
N
4
yrs,
hasn't
touched
a
drug
in
4
yrs-
Now
Jeremy
has
admited
that
he
has
ADHD
and
OCD,
he's
admited
that
he
does
need
counseling
but
that
,
he's
admited
that
he
has
issues
but
,
he's
not
this
monster
which
the
report
is
making
him
out
to
be-
and
because
I
am
with
him
there
for
I
am
an
unfit
mother,
all
because
Leslie
the
same
girl
whom
i
grew
up
with
,
had
been
friends
with
for
20
something
yrs
decided
that
she
was
going
to
roally
f@ck
up
my
life,
by
lying
and
filing
a
false
report
on
Jeremy
,
because
she
couldn't
get
any
dirt
on
me,
so
she
figured
she
would
go
after
him
to
make
him
look
bad
for
just
pure
spite.
It's
so
f@cked
up
and
unfair,
this
girl
has
caused
me
nothing
but
heart
ache,
pain
and
misery
,
and
I
have
done
nothing
to
her,
but
also
tried
to
be
good
to
her
-
she
was
the
one
who
offered
to
take
my
son
for
a
while
,
I
amdit
fully
that
I
messed
up
by
allowing
my
son
to
be
with
her
as
long
as
he
was,
(
since
now
he
is
in
kenship
placement
with
leslie's
1st
ex-
husband
and
his
wife
who
live
in
another
ocunty
an
hour
from
Jeremy
and
I
-
according
to
DSS
my
own
son
wants
nothing
to
do
with
me
and
doesn't
even
remember
me
because
that
bitch
leslie
whom
I
trusted
to
be
guardian
of
my
son
Temperarly
,
has
him
so
brain
washed
-
DSS
is
choosing
to
believer
her
of
me
.
Now
i'm
facing
the
hardest
decision
I've
ever
had
to
make,
and
that's
just
giving
him
up
for
adoption
,
because
DSS
feels
that
Jeremy
is
mentally
unstable
even
tho
he's
not
the
biological
father
of
William
-
The
biolgical
father
checked
out
long
time
ago
,
so
finding
him
is
just
going
to
make
matter's
worse-
DSS
has
pretty
much
made
of
their
minds,
that
because
of
Jeremy's
past
,
he's
not
stable
to
be
arround
childran
there
for
nor
am
I
a
fit
parent
-
even
DSS
isn't
comming
right
out
and
sayng
they
,
their
more
less
b/s
ing
me
-
My
case
has
been
passed
around
to
7
different
social
worker's
whom
haven't
do
a
damn
thing
to
help
me
or
Jeremy
,
nor
help
my
son
.
Because
of
that
,
I'm
now
being
forced
to
make
the
unltimate
decision
to
give
up
my
son,
not
because
Jeremy
is
forcing
me,
no
no,
because
of
Leslie's
Lies
and
false
report
she
filed
-
I'm
not
giving
up
my
son
because
I
want
to,
no
no,
I
love
him
with
all
my
heart
and
I
want
nothing
but
the
best
life
for
him
and
I
dont'
want
to
put
him
through
all
that
torture
of
and
heart
ache
of
yrs
of
court
,
20
minute
supervised
visitation
-
Jeremy
and
I
being
under
constient
monitering
,
pretty
much
on
probation
,
all
because
of
a
bunch
of
b/s
Leslie
told.
Truth
of
the
matter
it
,
it
would
take
yrs
for
my
son
to
regain
his
memory
of
me
and
I
dont'
want
to
put
him
through
something
like
that-
As
of
right
now
i'm
mother's
health
has
gotten
worse,
Jeremy
and
I
are
pretty
much
her
care
taker's
-
we
are
in
the
process
of
trying
to
get
my
mother
to
move
but
with
all
her
health
problems
that's
really
difficult
.
I
just
want
to
best
for
my
son,
and
if
that
means
him
not
being
with
me,
but
adopted
by
a
good
christian
couple
,
who
can
give
William
the
life,
that
I
havent'
been
able
to
give
him
because
I've
been
my
mothers
care
taker
.
I
love
my
little
boy
very
very
very
much
,
but
i'm
also
trying
not
to
be
selfish
as
far
as
being
a
parent
.
Fact
is
my
little
boy
needs
peace
and
stabiltiy
and
I
need
peace
as
well
.
OFFLINE
In order to be more like christ , we must be good to each other & love each other , even when other's dont return the same ...
..well
well
well!!
lookee
who
came
back
to
play??
missed
ya
hun..yeah
we've
been
getting
t'storms
pretty
regularly
these
days
ha
..sowwie
about
ur
tests
coming
back
inconclusive..I've
undergone
a
few
of
those
&
can
vouch
for
the
fact
'they
just
ain't
fun..hope
something
can
be
concluded
thru
further
diagnostics
there..keep
me
in
the
loop
how
u
r
progressing
alright??
be
strong
darlin'
..I'll
be
thinking
of
u..
OFFLINE
..all I can say is my life is pretty plain..you don't like my point-of-view..you think I'm 'insane' -- Blind Melon'No Rain'..
