Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD)

OH Boy where to begin about My OCD hehe well the main OCD I have is because I have fibromyalgia and TMJ at one point my left jaw was dislocated well because of these health issues that I Have My OCD is really bad about my teeth and gums I have this intrusive thought that wont go away and everytime i have this tought to make sure it doesn;t come true I HAVE to knock on wood and if theres no wood around I knock on my head not hard but I have to knock on it or i panick the thought will come true and that thought is that because of my TMJ and MY jaw hurting soo much that if something happens to my teeth and gums I wont be able to fix them and i will lose them and I Also have another intrusive thought that because of my fibro I have alot of facial pain and sinus pressure and it tightens my jaw and it seems like my teeth are moving when they are not so the other intrusive thought is that OH GOD I,m going to lose my teeth OHMY GOD so EVERYDAY i constantly worry about what i eat,when I eat,how i eat, on which side to eat to make sure nothing happens to my teeth and I panick if I have to eat anything crunchy or hard and if I,m stuck having to eat them in front of others who come over OH BOY I can only eat in front of my parents cause I ALWAYS make a mess of my food cause of the OCD and if they see it i dont mind and because of the OCD I eat ONLY twice a day and the minute I finish eating I have to brush and floss my teeth and when i have to brush my teeth and floss the OCD flares up again cause I,m just hoping my gums wont bleed cause I have had gum problems in the past and that made my OCD worse.this OCD about my teeth and gums is exhausting and I,ve had it for around 13 years now if not more IT WONT GO AWAY it got better after i had a serious breakdown in 95 thinking allmy teeth were falling out and I wouldnt eat and then it was time to take medication and my doctor prescribed prozac and it really helped for a while , I,ve noticed that my OCD about my teeth and gums is worse when my Jaw is really hurting the days it isn;t my OCD Is much calmer.and I have noticed that after my dear friend passed away from Cancer last November my OCD about my teeth have gone through the roof and the prozac i was taking didnt help anymore now with the elavil I,m taking for my jaw pain my OCD seems to be better since I guess the elavil is helping my jaw not hurt as much but when it does hurt MY OCD flares up and if I notice anything weird about my teeth It flares up again even if there is nothing really wrong with them and I also have other OCD I am a hoarder I CANT throw out my personal belongings or give them away and I DONT want ANYONE touching my personal objects if they do I get upset and I have soo many more I could go on and on but the common thread between all of them is that its ALWAYS intrusive thoughts,its like a broken record Some days I can shut them out but some days they have a mind of their own.OH BOY have i rambled OK I

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