=)..My name isnt (neese) its Denise =)call me whatevr u want, i have nicknames that go from "blue" "oprah" "pony" and "tyrone" so...by now i really dont care what you call me haha.lets see, i was self diagnosed with ocd a while back, but i was always a diffrent as a kid.Weird because i look back and i realized i had diffent symptoms or forms of ocd,i rememebr not being able to throw away what my mom would pack me for lunch as a kid beacuse i would start thinking "what if she dies, this would be the last thing she ever gave me" and stuff like contanination when i was about 5!..i had to re ask and re ask if something was okay to eat( i was afraid of eating war heads because i thought the foil wrapping would somehow seep into the candy? leaving me with someing inedible in my body)yea i know..Then when i turned about 14 i had to repeat things in my head.After a while of that scrupulosity hit.Not knowing wht OCD really was or that i even had it,i thought there was just some kind of undiscovered abnorml mental illness.Now that i know its not its so much more comforting.Scrupulosity took over the years, easily the toughest thing ive delt with in my life, but dont get me wrong its not religion or God,its just me!even i have trouble realzing that sometimes..i love God and without God i wouldnt of been able to make it this far...or be here at all.
Other than that, i love candlelight dinners and long walks on the beach..hahaha just kidding guys..i like a sense of humor,if your boring dont worry its okay i like you to.lol.When i feel better im the biggest dork in the world,i have no shame sometimes.If you know me personally you knwo what i mean, I love meeting and talking to new people so go ahead comment, mesg whatevr.OOh before i forget Thankyou to all of you who have been so supprtive on this site! u all know who you are.Thanks! =)
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Just
thought
i'd
say
hello.
Haven't
been
on
here
much
lately
i've
been
recording,
and
working
on
a
new
video.
been
really
busy.
but
still
have
anxiety,
and
ocd.
just
try
not
to
think
about
it
as
much
as
i
can.
but
some
days
it
still
catch's
up
to
you.
no
matter
what
you
do.hope
you
are
doing
good.
God
bless!!!!!