Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD)

I have OCD, anxiety disorder, anger management issues, and countless other phobias including phobia for meeting new people phobia of being stared at and put under the radar phobia of crowds phobia if drowning, claustraphobia.etc Mind you I sometimes feel like all this is a case of evere hypochrondia. In which case the suffering is just as bad, How did I become such a nut case you might ask. I dont know. All I know is that I lost my dad to a car crash when I was 4 years old and that is when my earliest memories of fear and panic attacks started. plus I have been through all sorts of physical and emotional abuse from other people and from myself. So I guess that My OCD has mutated into some form of super OCD over the years. I joined this group because I dont have access to psycotherapists in my country without having to go to the psycatric hospital and I dont want to go to a psyc hospital to get well because there is a kind of stigma attached to it in my culture. everyone will think am crazy. and I know that all I need is intense couselling. joing this group, is part of my healing process
Let me just say that I could not have come this far without the help of God. I know that many people dont believe but I have to give God the glory for patiently, lovinly and mercufully leading me step by step towards a perfect healthy me. I want to give God thanks for never giving up on me evn when I gave up on myself.
I have been through hell. All my life I have been trying to be perfectly happy but there has always been that dark cloud hanging over me. I now know that it is OCD making me feel like this and I believe that it is possible to be healed of this sickness. It is a hard rough fight but it is not over till either of us gives up who is gonna be me or OCD

Any thing that makes me happy.
Peace and Happyness
I like bright colours,
I like preety minature objects,
I like watching cartoons
I Like to watch a good moveie especially a good comedy not one that is corny or contrived.
I like dressing up
I like making people happy
I like seeing good things happening to good people
I like being perfect
I like winning
I like good food
I like history
I like chilling alone or with a good friend
I like to party

where do I begin?
I dislike OCD
I dislike the opposite of everything I like
I dislike spitefull persons
I dislike unfair treatment of another person
I dislike maliscious gossip
I dislike people who make themselves nuisances
I dislike the papparazzi
I dislike long comercial breaks
I dislike propaganda