Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD)

I'm a 19-year-old french girl, studying Literature and English Language - double degree - at university (second year, so I guess I'm a sophomore). I've always been an anxious person and I've had OCD since age 14 I would say, even if I've always had obsessions. Apparently I was very optimistic when I was a little girl, but I don't remember much. I'm a daydreamer, I love imagining stories in my head and writing them on the paper, even if I don't have much time to do that anymore (and I've lost a bit my inspiration), but I still have a big imagination. I write too much and I'm scared now that you might think that I'm a narcissic, but it's just that when I explain something, I'm obssessed with the idea of making myself clear and giving all the details, because I don't like the idea that I missed out on something. And well, I've always wrote. I hate hurting people, and I feel guily very easily, so I always walk on tiptoes because I'm scared to do something wrong. Despite everything, I love life. I'm a bit of an epicurean. I love enjoying even the smallest things. I always try to solve impossible questions. I'm a bit clumsy but I try to assume that part of myself. I'm always wondering if I've done something wrong. I'm very nostalgic and I always look at the past, so I regret many things, despite trying to see only what's ahead and not what is behind. I just hope to get through this struggle and find my way somehow.

The OCD I had: Pure O essentially. Harm-O, Schiz-O, HOCD, Confession Compulsions, Hoarding OCD, Religious OCD, ROCD, Checking OCD, False Memories, Miscellaneous OCD. Main one at the moment: Hypermorality OCD.

Reading a good book, discovering a new song and falling in love instantly, procrastinating on tumblr, rock music, being happy and carefree (feeling that I haven't felt in a long time), vacations, Ireland, Italy, my family and my friends, sunsets, the Atlantic Ocean and long walkings on the seaside, travelling, laughing so hard you can't stop, summer, feeling loved, taking pictures, photography in general, learning new things, talking and writing in English.

OCD, feeling depressed, beetroots, salsify, a lot of sports, celery, rap music, mean people, people who make fun of others without realizing how much they hurt them, shallow people, math, stress, anxiety, feeling nostalgy, regrets, guilt.

Coldplay, Muse, Snow Patrol, Radiohead, Florence + The Machine, Birdy, U2, The Beatles, John Lennon, Sia, Ed Sheeran, Imagine Dragons, Paramore, The Lumineers, Red, Adele, Bon Iver, The Fray, Oasis, Jimmy Eat World, and so many others.

The Harry Potter Saga, The Hunger Games, Catching Fire, and Mockingjay, A Swift Pure Cry, Leaving The World, The Sun Also Rises, Madame Bovary, and some others.

A lot. Never Let Me Go, Winter's Bone, Silver Linings Playbook, The Perks Of Being A Wallflower, The Lord Of The Rings, The Harry Potter Saga, The Hunger Games, The Help, Je Vais Bien Ne T'en Fais Pas, Catch Me If You Can, Little Miss Sunshine, etc.

Reading, writing, laughing, loving, hanging out with my friends, going to the cinema, watching movies and tv shows, shopping, listening to music and playing music, enjoying moments with my family, travelling, photography.

Pure O