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Dreamychloe
"'decide that you want it more than you are afraid of it.'"
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RELIGION: Catholic
ORIENTATION: Straight
DATING STATUS: Single
MEMBER SINCE: October 28, 2012
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GENDER: Female
LOCATION: France
AGE: 21
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STAR SIGN: Virgo
LAST LOGIN: 08.30.14


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I'm a 20-year-old french girl, studying Literature and English Language - double degree - at university (third year, and because you get your degree in three years here, I guess I'm a senior). I've always been an anxious person and I've had OCD since age 14 I would say, even if I've always had obsessions. Apparently I was very optimistic when I was a little girl, but I don't remember much. However, despite what I say, I'm still an optimistic person. I'm a daydreamer, I love imagining stories in my head and writing them on the paper, even if I don't have much time to do that anymore (and I've lost a bit my inspiration), but I still have a big imagination. I write too much and I'm scared now that you might think that I'm a narcissic, but it's just that when I explain something, I'm obsessed with the idea of making myself clear and giving all the details, because I don't like the idea that I missed out on something. And well, I've always written. I hate hurting people, and I feel guilty very easily, so I always walk on tiptoes because I'm scared to do something wrong. Despite everything, I love life. I'm a bit of an epicurean. I love enjoying even the smallest things. I always try to solve impossible questions. I'm a bit clumsy but I try to assume that part of myself. I'm always wondering if I've done something wrong. I'm very nostalgic and I always look at the past, so I regret many things, despite trying to see only what's ahead and not what is behind. I just hope to get through this struggle and find my way somehow.

The OCD I had: Pure O essentially. Harm-O, Schiz-O, HOCD, Confession Compulsions, Hoarding OCD, Religious OCD, ROCD, Checking OCD, False Memories, Miscellaneous OCD. Main one at the moment: Hypermorality OCD/Hyperesponsability/pure-O.


Reading a good book, discovering a new song and falling in love instantly, procrastinating on tumblr, rock music, being happy and carefree (a feeling that I haven't felt in a long time), vacations, Ireland, Italy, my family and my friends, sunsets, the Atlantic Ocean and long walkings on the seaside, travelling, laughing so hard you can't stop, summer, feeling loved, taking pictures, photography in general, learning new things, talking and writing in English.

OCD, feeling depressed, beetroots, salsify, a lot of sports, celery, rap music, mean people, people who make fun of others without realizing how much they hurt them, shallow people, math, stress, anxiety, feeling nostalgic, regrets, guilt.


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September 6, 2013, 5:05 am
Hey Happy Birthday!:)

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May 11, 2013, 4:49 pm
hiya :) Im glad that your doing ok and especially without meds too well done!! Iv been a bit stressed out lately with work and other things. My ocd is also mainly in my head aswell i have to cancel the bad thoughts with good thoughts all the time if that makes sense. I saw my therapist yesterday which helped a bit with the stress but not at all with the ocd and rituals. I saw your blog 'do you talk about all of your obsessions with your therapist' I dont usually do but I have a few times its hard because I feel like she will think Im a freak or something but she listens and tries to help as best she can sometimes I write them down to show her if Im to scared to talk about it. Anyway best wishes Im here to talk anytime and you can ask me anything I feel better telling someone who understands xxx

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April 3, 2013, 1:30 pm
hiya no worries hope your ok! Im ok i suppose i went to see my therapist the other day and she is trying to get in touch with someone who specializes in OCD or Disorders of that nature but it might take a while, it will be worth it if it helps me in any way though. I might see if they can change my medication or something to see if it helps at all. Another thing that is worrying me is that Iv been doing the rituals alot at work lately and Im conscious of people watching me and thinking im a freak or there is something wrong with me.

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March 26, 2013, 4:52 pm
Thank you for YOUR sweet message!! Your post in the forum I read was well written and very interesting to read! Long, but not too long :) I guess from an outsiders point of view, it is heatbreaking to read of someone so good struggling and thinking the worst of themselves. I truly do hope you accomplish all your want and have a happy life. I do have a question- how did you get over the harm o?

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March 21, 2013, 10:08 pm
Hey hun. I wanted to let you know that I read the very loooong story you wrote in the forum under experiences part and I just want to give you a hug!! You seem like such a sweet girl with so many worries. Damn ocd. Thank you for your honesty and detail . It seems its the very moral and proper people who get this illness. You are amazing and I hope you are doing well. You deserve the whole world!! I have many of the same fears you described and I know how heart wrenching it is. Hang in there dreamer, stay busy as much as you can and never forget you are not alone.

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Coldplay, Muse, Snow Patrol, Radiohead, Florence + The Machine, Birdy, U2, The Beatles, John Lennon, Sia, Ed Sheeran, Imagine Dragons, Paramore, The Lumineers, Red, Adele, Bon Iver, The Fray, Oasis, Jimmy Eat World, and so many others.

The Harry Potter Saga, The Hunger Games, Catching Fire, and Mockingjay, A Swift Pure Cry, Moon Palace, Leaving The World, The Sun Also Rises, Madame Bovary, and some others.

A lot. Never Let Me Go, Winter's Bone, Silver Linings Playbook, The Perks Of Being A Wallflower, The Lord Of The Rings, The Harry Potter Saga, The Hunger Games, The Help, Je Vais Bien Ne T'en Fais Pas, Catch Me If You Can, Little Miss Sunshine, etc.

Reading, writing, laughing, loving, hanging out with my friends, going to the cinema, watching movies and tv shows, shopping, listening to music and playing music, enjoying moments with my family, travelling, photography.

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