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Cakey666
"Cry, And you cry alone. Smile, And the world smiles with you."
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RELIGION: Wiccan
ORIENTATION: Straight
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MEMBER SINCE: July 13, 2010
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GENDER: Female
LOCATION: United Kingdom
AGE: 18
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STAR SIGN: Taurus
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Ive have OCD since 2010. When I first realised-I felt like an outsider. It ruled my life. I wouldnt go out, Id avoid contact with others. I was a hermit. I lived in a sad shell and it was horrible.

This is what I have.
Checking- lightswitches/switches left on when not in use must be turned off. doors, fires/matches/candles.

Ruminations-Every time I get on a bus. If I see someone use a bus pass and get off only a few stops away. I question why they would do that! Then I realise that its because they boght the pass and can use it easily instead of using effort and walking. then I say-I would probably walk.
Intrusive Thoughts -
being raped.
me being attacked violently.
stabbing, shot, hit by cars.
thoughts of my family being killed in horrific ways.

Contamination-
Waiting in a GP’s surgery (fear of contracting germs from other people).
Visiting hospitals (fear of contracting germs from other people).


Religious Intrusive Thoughts-
Certain prayers must be said over and over again.
Violent intrusive thoughts- Jumping in front of a train or fast moving bus.
Acting on unwanted impulses, e.g. running someone over, stabbing someone.

repetition-
tapping
moving-simple everyday movements have to be just right. ill do it until its right.
typing. takes me ages to type. keep going backwards and forwards.
twitching/blinking-- ill twitch/blink until it feels right.

Symettry­-
Having pictures hanging aligned and straight.
Having clothes on the rail all facing the same way.

Triggers---seeing or hearing something could set off anything.

contamintaion- handwashing. my hands are always so dry because i wash them alot.
touching bodily fluids/anything dirty.
or not even touching something. just thinking ive touched it. ill have to wash it off even if its not there.
I struggle going into hospitals/doctors/vets/medical places. i feel contaminated. and the smell makes me feel sick.
constantly concerned with personal odor.

hoarding-keeping rubbish and stupid materials i think ill use. and never using them.
keeping old clothing and thinking one day ill fit into them again or ill use them as artistic materials.

old obsessions---
used to have an issue of flushing the toilet. because of severe thought of it flooding and overflowing going everywhere.
used to have an issue with my wardrobe door. I look inside. then close. and repeatedly do this for over an hour before i go to bed to check that theres nothing in there.


creating feelings....
depressed
Embarrassed
Secretive
Hopeless
Frustrated
Drained
Ashamed
Bullied
Exhausted
strained
stressed
empty
the need to feel pain. pain relieves me for a short while. nail digging. cutting. scratching. hitting head against wall. punching things.



Strawberries. Good food. Nature. The beauty in the world. Good manners. Gentlemen. Friendships. Pizza. MoVIES! MUSIC! ART! PHOTOGRAPHY! Social gatherings. Fantasy. Imagination. Sound. Alone Time too. Helping People. LAUGHING! I LOVE TO LAUGH.

Obsessive Compulsive disorder. People who dont spell properly. Marmite..Eugh. Bullies. Self-centered people. Spiders. Being told what to do. Arguing. Mean people.


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June 8, 2012, 7:10 pm
hope u keeping well. stay blessed

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May 12, 2012, 8:05 pm
So how it going hey what is Wiccan

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From: Snell
May 9, 2012, 8:41 pm
Oh that ok hey we hardly talk anymore l hardly knew you we should talk more So how have you been ?

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From: plep001
May 6, 2012, 11:07 pm
Happy Birthday!

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From: Snell
May 6, 2012, 10:22 pm
Happy Birthday! Have a really good one

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Breaking Benjamin, BFMV, Greenday,A7X,panic at the disco, muse, avril lavigne, GNR, evanessence, fallout boy, 30STM, metro station, system of a down, new found glory, MCR, linkin park, iron maiden, dragonforce, blink 182, alien ant farm, black stone cherry, alice cooper, good charlotte, slipknot, hey monday, PARAMORE, Flyleaf, VersaEmerge,Escape the fate, We are the in crowd, trivium, Fireflight, Black Veil Brides. Shinedown, City And Colour, daughtry, anberlin, Lexia, Millencolin.

Game Of Thrones.
Fantasy Novels.

Arts and crafts. I do EVERYTHING! Photography. Painting. Printing. Drawing. PHOTOSHOP. Music-I like tinkling the ivories now and again.
Surfing. Having MASSIVE MOVIE MARATHONS.

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