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so scared
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By:
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Tinamary
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Mood:
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Fearful
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Date:
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Jun 21, 2008
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Music:
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None
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My
weepy
mood
has
mostly
passed
but
not
I
am
terrified
of
something
I
thought
last
night
may
come
true.
I
was
driving
home
from
having
a
lovely
dinner
out
with
my
partner
when
I
got
the
thought
into
my
head
that
I
wanted
him
to
be
evil,
and
that
life
would
be
more
exciting
if
he
was
evil.
WHAT
A
LOAD
OF
CRAP!!!!!
I
love
my
partner
very
much
and
that
is
because
he
is
the
kindest,
gentlest,
sweetest
and
non-evil
person
I
have
ever
known.
I
don't
under
any
circumstances
want
him
to
be
evil!
But
at
the
time
when
that
horrible
thought
came
into
my
head
I
felt
for
a
few
seconds
like
I
wanted
it
to
be
true,
but
I
know
in
my
heart
that
I
don't
want
it
to
be
true.
What
is
wrong
with
me.....am
I
sick
in
the
head
or
something!!!!!
I
think
it
boils
down
to
the
fact
that
most
of
my
life
I
have
been
around
evil
and
nasty
people
and
been
abused
and
hurt
by
them
and
maybe
part
of
my
mind
thinks
that
is
all
I
deserve.
But
I
want
good
things
in
my
life
and
good
people
now
more
than
anything.
I
deserve
to
be
treated
like
a
human
being
and
not
an
....
I
was
going
to
say
animal
but
animals
are
treated
better
than
the
way
I
was
at
times.
I
don't
want
my
partner
to
change
into
an
evil
person
or
entity.
I
am
so
scared
and
feel
so
guilty.
I
love
him
for
his
kind
nature
and
he
wouldn't
be
my
partner
if
he
was
nasty
or
evil.
I
feel
like
a
complete
bitch
for
even
thinking
the
horrible
thoughts.
My
life
is
exciting
now
without
hurt
or
pain
or
badness
and
I
don't
want
that
to
change!
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