Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD)

Here's what you are going to do...you are not going to listen to what your ocd is telling you. That is his job...he tells us things that are not true to mess with our minds. ocd tells us lies. It probably doesn't help when us older folk tell you that you are so young and there is plenty of time for you to meet someone. but it is true. So start telling yourself that one day you will recover from ocd and one day you will meet your soulmate.

 Distractions are good for the mind.  I agree there and I think I give off a melancholy vibe too at times.  It's hard to not project that because OCD makes a person stressed and sad and anxious.  Most people don't understand, but I have faith that you will meet the right woman who will understand what you are going through and she will help you through it when you need the help and will love you for you.  

 ocd is about as accurate and reliable as a fortune cookie.... see, no matter what ocd says, you are not the ocd.. you are not your thoughts or your feelings. You are much more than the sum of those. But we don't teach people to step back and see that. If you learn to train yourself to step back and see a feeling as a thing, a part of you but not all that you are... and thoughts the same way... then there is choice on how to respond or not. 

The question isn't why do these thoughts/feelings happen or how can I stop them.... the question is why do you choose to believe them? OCD is like having a smoke alarm that goes off when you make toast... but instead of seeking to put out the fire we are running through the house screaming FIRE FIRE and then jumping out a window to escape.

OCD people... and especially depressed ocd people give off a vibe that tells other people something is wrong. You are correct there, but not for the reason you might think. What people pick up on is the negative self perceptions we tend to hold, the air of melancholy we can have about us.  The good news is that while OCD can't be cured and may come and go to varying degrees, that vibe can be more or less wiped out with some hard work and choices.

don't let your heart sink just yet my new friend... you are very young and you can get there. Whenever this thought of "never get better, die alone" happens I need you to say to yourself in your head or out loud... "no, I won't even think about it that way right now." Sounds silly but you'd be amazed at how it can have an effect sometimes. Our brains can be like sponges and soak up what they hear. The thought will come back, so say it again... and again... keep saying it. Distract yourself if you have to for now.