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By: Eveis
Mood: Angry
Date: Sep 19, 2011
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i hate it! i have severe ocd and its frekin not fair. i have problems sleeping at night and sometimes i have to open doors and walk in the same place like frekin 20 times or over omfg. i have little bit of the washing problem but sheesh who doesn't? i have problem even typeing this i have to move the mouse around through the dang desk and around the laptop in some bad times and move the curser around in dumb times on my dang browser. I would even have lots and lots of panic attacks jeeez. and my ocd would keep happening every dang second if i even able to sleep and wake up, i wake up feeling good then my ocd anxiety starts hitting making me need to get up having a raceing heart to do my ocd crud. i take paxil it helps at morning but my ocd is so annoying its hard to control. i would always frekin feel nervous and it makes it realllllly!!!!! hard to sleep.if i stand still in a empty room i bet my ocd would think theres something very bad gonna happen. My family makes me very happy and their support and love keeps me going. i wish all of this gets resloved so i can feel better. Im gettin tired of my frekin family being so worried about me, it makes me feel so sad being alive -cries very hard-

 

(ps forgot to put i have very bad istrusive thoughts.)

 

 

(ps im happy i found this nice site thank you for reading firends and hope u all feel better. )



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From: Marlady
September 20, 2011, 3:19 am

 


Eveis, I can so relate to your ocd symptoms...I was 'where you are' for years and years before I ever knew what was wrong with me! Eventually I got some help from taking zoloft, which relieved my anxiety and depression but the real help came with a few months of Behavior Therapy with a wonderful psychologist. He helped me get rid of most of my compulsions which were driving me crazy!


I later quit taking the zoloft for awhile and a few of the compulsions have returned, mostly 'bad' thoughts. So I need to get back on the meds.


If you could do the 'behavior therapy' thing you would be surprised  how easy it is and how much it would help!


Don't worry about your family worrying about you - they Love you and OCD is NOT your fault! But I do understand the feelings. Take heart sweetie, don't lose hope.


Hugs,


Mary


 


 



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September 19, 2011, 9:24 pm

Hey there! It breaks my heart to read this but you can talk to me whenever, and i could try to help ya. :) I really hope you start feeling better, and i know i have said this many times to people but i would really recommend reading the book Brain Lock, it has helped me so much, and i feel it could benefit to anyone with OCD. :)



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