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By: iheartink
Mood: Frustrated
Date: Apr 17, 2011
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i'm tired of being me. i feel like there is always something that i'm doing that makes me seem crazy and weird. i think i've really given up on meeting anyone. i get weird and my brain tells me that i need to have constant confirmation that everything is ok. i don't even really know if i'm making sense. someone told me that i drive people away because i'm always asking if everything is ok between us. why am i like this? why do i have to give a crap if a guy talks to me. i'm so lonely it's not even funny. i'm frustrated with my sister right now because she can't 'man' up and be a sister to me when i need her most. i'm tired of this..i can't do it anymore and i want it to stop.



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April 18, 2011, 11:53 am

 I totally get the having to have constant confirmation that everything is ok part. I don't know why it is nearly impossible for people with anxiety/OCD to live without having constant control of the entire universe. Any uncertainty demands hours of thought, planning, and predicting. It's awful. If you discover the secret of how to make this go away, PLEASE let me know.



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April 17, 2011, 12:55 pm

reading that was like reading something i wrote myself.  i do understand everything you said.



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From: giru
April 17, 2011, 12:14 pm

yeah me too. Always feel like they don't like me, that I suck , wonder why they even hang out with me. Sometimes can't talk to people just because I think I suck so much why would they want me too? and these are my friends. But then I can't say anything because I feel like I'm complaining to them and bothering them. Right now I just feel like f**k everything I just don't care anymore. This morning I took extra meds (I know I shouldn't). So I'm with you I know what it's like and am here if you want to talk.



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