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freak out!!!

By: geisha707
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Date: Apr 13, 2007
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So just as i thought everything was going well - I get treated to some semi-permanenet false eyelashes, not my thing usually, but I thought it would be nice to get pampered. But while she was doing them the contamination demon leapt out and I got really scared. I got in the car and rubbed my eyes with alcohol rub and pulled them all out then cleaned my eyes so many times with the alcohol they stang like crazy. Now I still feel `contaminated' despite her reassurances that everything was clean. Why do other people not worry about these things? Should I be worrying less about stuff like hep c, or should other people be worrying more. I start therapy next week and I have no idea how they are going to help me cope with stuff like hep c and asbestos. I just feel like I am going to worry my life away and not enjoy it anymore Sorry to moan!


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April 14, 2007, 3:36 pm
Don't apologize! This ocd is really frustrating. I too, worry about possible contamination, while others never give it a thought. I work in a hospital and that's where my ocd gets out of control. I feel like everything could be contaminated. I fear sharp containers(where used needles are disposed) I don't even like standing near one. I always fear that I am going to get hiv. I have small cuts all over my hands, due to washing them so many times, so that when I go to work I always fear that I will touch something with blood and it will get absorbed in my skin because I have small cuts everywhere. So, I definately know how you feel! I want to enjoy life and stop worring about everything! I love my job and will not let my ocdsabotage it. At one point I thought maybe I should leave my job because of my ocd but then I realized that I am letting my ocd win. I really love what I do and don't want to change my profession because of my ocd. Hang in there! Therapy will help! Talk to you soon! Take Care. Your Friend, Jezz

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Worry Wart!!!!
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