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ADD & OCD together , are sometimes too much

By: LadyRaines52608
Mood: Tired
Date: Dec 01, 2008
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The last couple of days have been kinda rough , Jeremy's OCD has been a litte more intense the last couple of days  & we've butted heads more than we usually do .  There are times when my ADD & Jeremy's OCD together is just too much & too intense for me to deal with @ the moment .  Jeremy's OCD gets into over drive that he doesn't know how to stop him self from preforming all his rituals & that's when things between us getting really intence because I get incredibly aggrovated with Jeremy feeling this need to have everything perfect , perfect , perfect -  I just get exhausted with Jeremy pulling me into his rituals ,  now I don't mind him ritualizing something in another room but when we are in same room,  it gets rather annoying , especially when Im on the computer bloging  - the other thing that gets on my nerves is that Jeremy feels that everything of mine has to be in the place he wants it to be in ,  I tell him he respects my stuff , I'll respect his stuff ,  I don't go into his closet & change the places where he puts things, then there no reason to move my things  .  Now I understand part of  OCD is needing to be in control  , how ever Jeremy has to realize that he can't control me , im not a child , he's not my parent - I don't control him  , he's a grown man  what he does is his business - now for the most part im a pretty patient  & understanding woman , I love Jeremy with all my heart  & I could never imagine myself with some one else , but there are times when Jeremy's OCD gets just a little too intense for my ADD brain to process .  Everything having to be done in a certain way ,  everything having to be checked & rechecked 3 times ,  it just gets too stimulating for me & that's when I just stop what ever it is that I am doing with Jeremy & I go to another room to do something else , because Im not going to burn my time all day long worrying or obbessing about if  that particular thing I was doing was done properly .   Then Jeremy gets up set  & says im not helping him , when really  it has nothing to do with that , Im just not going to continue to try to help him with something if he doesn't like  my way of doing things -  I can't  do things his way , because Im not him .   He can get up set all he wants but Im not going to kill to myself  trying to be perfect to make some one else happy .    Jeremy thinks that I am just being lazy , when it's not that @ all , I just  have my times when his OCD just over stimulates  my ADD & it just stresses me out & frustrates me even more -  I have learned to just take a break from what ever it is that I am doing that I am getting frustrated with , Jeremy on the other hand  will push himself no matter how frustrated he gets ,  he'll mess & mess with what ever it is that he's working on until he gets it like he wants it  & when he gets like that & get irritated I just back off  and go into another room , because there no talking any common sense into stuburn man .    I've told Jeremy many times , that I understand his reasons for the OCD & all the rituals but that  there are times when I just want him to do his thing in another room , I want to be left alone to do my own thing  ( like blog)   im not saying that Im not accepting of the OCD because I have,  ( if I didn't accept his OCD I wouldn't still be with him afer almost 5 yrs being back together)   IF I truly didn't accept Jeremy's OCD & understand what his triggers are I wouldn't  be the patient & understanding woman that I am  . I love Jeremy very much  , he's got such a wonderful & big heart and he's always trying to help people , even if that means putting himself last , Jeremy is incredibly loyal  which one of the things that made me fall in love with him , not to menton the fact that life is never dull or boaring if Jeremy ( JR)  is arround , he's always suprising me  & he's always taken care of me  , makes sure I  get what ever I need , he's always  making sure my mom is taken care of  , so how can I not love  him - but  there are times when the OCD &  my ADD just makes things a little too intense  .



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