Update
I
haven't
written
in
awhile.
So
I
thought
I
would
give
an
update.
I'm
doing
ok.
I
had
a
really
bad
day
Sunday
I
mean
really
bad,
suicidal
thoughts
and
everthing.
It
was
crazy
cause
it
was
all
of
a
sudden.
My
therapist
is
ok.
She
is
driving
me
crazy
because
she
knows
that
I
want
to
know
what
we
are
going
to
be
doing
next
and
she
purposly
won't
tell
me.
Sometimes
with
the
the
things
she
says
I
don't
think
she
knows
how
I
think
at
all.
But
I
guess
our
relationship
will
grow
in
time.
My
son
starts
his
therapy
Monday.
She
sounds
great.
She
is
going
to
try
to
retrain
his
thinking
and
fears.
She
will
be
doing
natural
stuff
to
build
up
the
neurons
in
his
brain
to
help
slow
down
his
ceratonin
that
causes
ocd.
I'm
praying
it
will
work.
I
really
don't
want
him
to
be
on
meds.
Me
and
my
son
are
both
challenging
ourselves
to
see
if
we
can
let
some
things
go.
He
is
trying
to
not
get
out
of
bed
and
check
on
me
and
I
have
tried
not
to
freak
out
about
the
heaters.
I'm
not
allowed
to
touch
them
or
touch
the
walls
surrounding
them.
This
has
helped
us
a
bunch
doing
it
together.
We
will
ask
each
other
in
the
morning
if
we
cheated
and
so
far
it
has
been
great.
We
both
were
talking
about
how
so
hard
it
can
be
at
times.
They
are
also
saying
I
have
ocpd.
The
type
where
I
try
to
be
perfect.
So
I'm
really
trying
to
not
say
sorry
24/7
or
defend
myself
about
everything.
That
has
been
a
hard
one.
Ecspecially
today
at
Thanksgiving
cause
we
always
do
it
at
my
house
and
I
was
going
crazy
trying
to
make
everything
perfect.
But
all in
all
I'm
doing
pretty
good.
I
have
had
my
moments
but
they
haven't
been
freak
out
moments
besides
Sunday.
So
praise
be
to
God.
It
is
only
His
hand
that
is
saving
me
and
keeping
calm.
Talk
to
everyone
soon!
God
Bless
and
I
hope
ya'll
had
a
great
Thanksgiving!!!!!!
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