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surviving
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By:
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grime
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Mood:
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Mellow
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Date:
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Oct 05, 2008
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Music:
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mystery train
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you
know
alot
of
times
in
the
past
my
ocd
has
caused
me
great
embarrisment
and
also
taken
away
my
ability
to
concentrate
on
many
things
people
take
for
granted.
Example
i
used
to
travel
by
train
to
work,a
round
trip
of
200
km,every
day
and
had
to
try
and
hide
some
of
my
rituals,eg;
i
used
to
stand
on
one
leg
and
spin
around
in
circles,very
embarrising
but
if
i
didnt
do
it
i
thought
the
train
might
catch
fire
or
derail
or
worse,and
when
i
arrived
at
work
alot
of
times
i
was
responsible
for
running
a
line
depot
of
say
50
ppl,work
that
out.its
astounding
what
mindset
you
can
have
one
minute
and
then
because
of
necessity
i
cld
snap
out
of
it
the
next.Oh
it
would
still
be
there
but
my
concentration
would
be
on
my
work
and
the
welfare
of
my
mates,very
few
indeed
knew
of
my
ocd
and
assosociated
problems,ide
cover
it
up
and
because
i
acted
silly
alot
alot
of
mates
never
seemed
to
look
any
further
with
me,just
laugh
all
the
time,ha
ha,when
i
was
installing
telephones
say,i
would
do
the
job
in
say
1
hour,and
the
rest
of
the
time
i
would
infest
whoever
was
with
me
with
grime
sillliness,i
loved
my
job
and
always
had
a
laugh
and
did
my
work
at
the
same
time,.then
after
ide
knock
off
back
to
the
train
station,sometimes
thier
would
be
a
couple
of
workmates
that
would
get
off
the
train
a
ways
up
the
track,
i
would
maybe
play
cards
with
em,or
depending
on
how
i
felt
i
might
find
a
spot
on
the
train
where
i
could
carry
out
some
rituals
and
hopefully
not
be
seen,those
times
were
tough,but
at
least
i
had
a
gap
in
the
middle
where
i
could
work
and
be
silly,and
if
i
didnt
i
dont
think
i
would
be
here
now,..............................
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