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one man with ocd and a baby

By: homerj
Mood: Sad
Date: Oct 02, 2008
Music: lost in space


Hello been a long time since i have done a blog. i have been very up and down in that time, back at work and really enjoying that, i do have days where i feel soo out of it and get bad thoughts of hitting people but you just get on with it , the last week have been pretty bad, my head constantly on high alert running away with its self, horrible angry thoughts about just about any thing, my wife and i are expecting our first baby next week and i think i am just getting a bit stressed about it and it is causing my head to do what it is doing, i would never hurt my wife or baby to be,its soo hard when you get dark thoughts about them, i soo want to be a better dad than my dad was to me.any body gone through having a child while you have ocd, any advised would help .thanks .homer j x



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October 2, 2008, 6:06 pm

Homer I can understand where you are comming from  -  now I don't have OCD myself but I have been with my partner Jeremy for 8 yr who suffers from OCD as well , so I know all the challanges that you and your wife are going through, a new baby on the way , it's alot to take in , especially when your OCD because every little stress tiggers thaughts that wouldn't haven't  when your not stressed out - my partner Jeremy & I dont have any childran of our own yet but we are currently trying for our first baby together,  after  7 1/2 yrs of waiting  - to say the least it's taken us along time to get to this chapter in our relationship .  All I can tell you is to keep the faith and know that god won't give you more than you can handle  no matter if you have OCD or if you don't  , god wont' give you any more than you can handle .   I wish you and wife luck and god bless both you , including the new arrival comming soon - trust me honey once you hold that precious baby in your arms & you and your wife look @ each other seeing the wonderful creation that you two made together, all of those horrible , deep dark thaughts that you have will melt away  , no they won't totally go away but  you'll have a new motovation in life and that is being the best daddy you can be . God bless all of you .

 

Melissa



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I was sure by now god you would have reached down & wiped my tears away, step in & saved the day, once again I say amen, & it's still raining & even as the thrunder rolls, I barely hear you whisper through the rain I'm with you - And as your mercy falls, I praise the hands of the god who gives & takes away - I praise you in this storm & I will lift my hands , you are who you are, no matter where I am , every tear I've cried, you hold my hand, even tho my heart is torn, I will praise you through this storm.
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October 2, 2008, 4:26 pm

Even now I have those awful thoughts of hurting my beloved son.  Yes, it does bother me, but the secret is, DON'T feed into it.  You have to breath and let it go.  My silly way of doing this is:  I sneeze away the thought.  When I was a child there was a book called, "Robert the red-nosed horse"  In the book Robert would sneeze and say, "and then, and then!  Kuuuuuuurrrrrrrchooooo!  When a thought comes into my head I don't want, I sneeze it away.  I hope this helps. 



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The most important kind of freedom is to be what you really are. You trade in your reality for a role. ...You give up your ability to feel, and in exchange, put on a mask. Jim Morrison
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