My Dads voice
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By:
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katmando
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Mood:
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Don\'t know
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Date:
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Sep 19, 2008
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Music:
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None
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Today
I
fell
into
the
bdd,
and
just
started
obsessing
and
now
and
its
such
a
dangerous
web. When
I
went
to
the
ocd
meeting
a
few
weeks
ago
a
lady
in
the
group
said
most
people
have
a
hard
time
accepting
compliments
in
general.
I
am
not
sure
if
this
really
true.
I
do,
but
than
it
makes
me
think
of
the
times
people
have
said
positive
things
about
my
apperance,
and
maybe
its
not
true,
if
people
have
a
hard
time
accepting
them.
I
guess
one
doesn\'t
have
to
do
with
the
other. I
just
keep
going
over
what
that
lady
said
to
me,
about
being
thin
a
little
over
a
week
ago.
In
my
mind
I
keep
trying
to
recreate
the
situation,
and
in
order
she
said
things.
Like
if
things
I
thought
were
positive
where
said
first,
or
things
I
thought
were
negative
said
first.
The
bottom
line
is
it
should
not
matter,
and
the
situation
should
be
dimssed.
I
am
jsut
having
a
hard
time
not
ruminating
about
it. Also
my
father
was
the
one
that
was
always
critical
about
my
apperance,
to
the
point
of
absurdness.
I
am
happy
with
my
weight
and
how
I
look,
and
even
though
I
do
not
see
my
father,
I
know
he
would
not
be
happy
about
my
weight.
He
would
rip
me
apart.
I
think
most
peoples
comments
about
my
apperance
should
be
taken
with
a
grain
of
salt
and
for
the
most
part
no
one
is
really
being
mean
spirited.
Its
really
me
mistaking
these
other
people
as
my
father. I
am
150,
5'10"
and
athletic.
I
just
remember years ago
I
was
10
poundS
heavier,
and
my
father
told
me
I
should
be
hopsitalized.
I
never
got
my
father,
and
probably
never
will.
He
is
one
screwed
up
guy. Thanks
for
letting
me
vent Justin
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