Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD)

Thank you rq, troubleguyette and Billdoor.  I appreciate your comments.

i can relate to what you're syaing, definitely. i like being alone too but at the same time, it would be really nice to just have some people to be around with and share things with. but it's okay, sometimes i think a lot of people feel the same even if we would never guess it of them. you just keep being yourself and be the best you can be and you have every reason to be proud of yourself, NOT to think you're weird. for what it's worth, i think you're great and i'm glad to know you in this web-world!:-)

im sorry your sad i have alot of those same feelings like why cant i just be like other people  but i guess we cant and thats ok thats why we have this place to share our thoughts i was sad last night and i sat out under a tree and thought about throwing rocks at a bees nest and let them come out and sting me pretty wierd huh but my daughter came out and talked to me and made me feel beter so i just want you to know im here for you and anything i can do to help  just let me know                 sending love and sunshine

 Hang in there... and you KNOW you're never alone... we're all HERE!!  :)

I understand what you're saying  though... I don't feel like I fit in socially, and it's b/c of the ocd.  It stops me from doing things "normal'' people do and they don't even think twice about it.... and that makes me "feel" like a loner.

Keep your chin up... I think this is just a dip on the roller coaster!  You'll be back UP soon!!

Hugs,

RQ

Thank you for your comments Elsie, Jackie and Bubbiesmom!  I really do appreciate them.  You don't know how much.  I feel like crying again but this time it's because I feel like someone really does even know that I exist and thinks I might be worth while to have around. 

I know I can be a drama queen and a know it all sometimes.  I sometimes think that some people on this site don't really think I should be here or something.  That might be part of my paranoid tendencies having to do with my ocd.

I was looking at some journaling I did back in October of 2006 and, man, I was pretty messed up.  I was having very irrational thoughts.  I know I was kind of that way this past December too.  A lot of it had to do with family stress and issues that were beyond my control.  Well, I am not one to sit around and wallow in my own sorrows.  I try to be proactive and positive myself.  Sometimes it is impossible to be positive with this ocd, I know.  The medication has helped me quite a bit but it is days like this where I start to worry again and think that the medication is going to stop working again and I don't want to see myself back in that rut of self-pity and depression.  I get scared.  My way of trying to alleviate the fear is to sometimes take my way of viewing the world and force it on others.  That is truly impossible because I am NOT in control of everything! 

Big hugs for your kind and helpful words and thoughts!  This place has helped me so much but sometimes I think I should not spend so much time here because I feel drained.  I know I am doing better now and I want to try to help others but sometimes that is so draining. 

I think I might be rambling.  Anyway, THANK YOU!

D, you are a good person. You're a good friend to me, and if you don't feel like you fit in anywhere else, you fit in here at this site. Keep reminding yourself that part of the problem might be your personality disorders and you aren't being a know it all. Know it alls are people who are proud and don't have respect for how the other person will feel after they have given them advice. You do it with a good heart. Keep telling yourself you are a good person and you do fit in. We love ya girl.

I think you're pretty swell.  You're straightforward and you rarely sugar-coat - I like that!  Celebrate the fact that you're not a sheep following the rest of the herd.