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Work and OCD

By: chez
Mood: Fearful
Date: Dec 28, 2012
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I was wondering if working and OCD can go together all i have been thinking about lately is going back to work in Feburary i want to go back need to for money reason's and it is really good of my boss keeping my job open for me but honestly i am scared to go back what if i let everyone down i have a problem with trying to be the best at everything and constanly worry if i am a good person and liked. I am not a checker but at work i am constantly checking the database, worried about anyone bringing germs in, being around people and answering the awkwark questions what was wrong with me to be off for 12 months arrrrgggg.

I know i will have to cut down my meds as well because they make me tired sleepy and when i go back to work i am up at 5am so i am also worried i won't get up and just the smallest silliest little things i am worry about. maybe i have just gotten too comfortable being at home or have become lazy i don't know i wish this worrying would stop.



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January 1, 2013, 1:52 pm

I'm not clear about your situation but I feel having something purposeful to do will make your forget your OCD. Try to distract yourself with something that takes your full concentration and is enjoyable to you when the worries pop up in your head. ^^



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From: Dave123
December 28, 2012, 8:43 pm

hows it going man, ha ha i should know right. If u dont try u will never know  work can be daunting when its tough enough to get through the day BUT the more u push your self the more u will learn about u the diease and what u can manage on a day to day bases. I wake up some mornings scared to leave my house scared to leave my bedroom sometimes scared to put my feet on the floor . then i tell myself that all journeys start with the first step and THIS TO SHALL PASS. hope it helps its worked for me in the past.



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December 28, 2012, 5:26 pm

 dearest chezzy... there is a basic rule of thumb to apply to questions like these...


Always Do What You Would Do If You Did Not Have OCD 


Live Your Life because it is YOURS and does not belong to the OCD


Pushing back against the OCD is tough and at times you'll fail, but life is about both success and failure for all people so with OCD you face different challenges but no more and no less than others. Every time you choose to not live as a regular person then you are basically letting the OCD take the wheel and it is living your life for you. Unless you completely believe in reincarnation then this is the only life you get and it would be wise to live every minute of it you can. You won't win every battle but you go to battle anyway. Always go to battle against it or it will steal away everything it can. It sucks that we have to fight to just keep life at status quo but that is how it is. We can't change that part. We can either go to battle and do our level best to live our lives, or we can sit in the middle of wallow pond and watch the OCD steal our lives away from us moment by moment and event by event.


It is fine to take time away from work when it is needed. Just like any other health condition, sometimes we need to put more of our attention into taking care of ourselves and getting well. But, if you are like me you will struggle with knowing when that is the case and when we are just retreating unnecessarily. I struggle with that a lot because I've spent my life pushing myself physically. So, what I do is I talk to one of the very small number of people that I trust about this. I get an opinion I know I can trust.  I also write down the reasons I think I need time to heal and reasons I think I need to push back instead. It usually becomes apparent once I write it all down... but even then I will be filled with doubt. But that doubt is just a feeling the OCD causes and I have to accept it is there and then decide to act according to what I already decided to do. 


People with OCD not only "can" work but they should. I know there will be people who will disagree, argue or get upset about that but it is true. Very, very few people with OCD cannot work at all and most of those have other intellectual issues. OCD is technically a disability but it is also manageable, possible to affect and change it and it does not actually prevent a person from being able to work. It causes thoughts and feelings - both of which make things challenging but they do not physically prevent someone from being able to work. The problem may become finding a type of job that is suitable. You want to not choose things that avoid all triggers - that is catering to the OCD far too much. But you also don't need to be at maximum stress levels every day. 


Having a job gives structure to your time, which is very good on many levels. Having a job also means you have more of a sense of purpose and independence. Studies have shown that people with a sense of purpose live longer and are healthier over all. Having a job gives you social outlets and keeps your mind on external things more.  Making money is always a plus. Having a job is a means of having confidence and a feeling of accomplishment too.


The worst thing for a person with OCD is free time without structure or purpose... closely followed by having a lack of choices due to limited finances and dependence on others.



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