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The source of my displeasure
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By:
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Piggy
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Mood:
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Angry
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Date:
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May 08, 2012
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Music:
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Clutch - Binge and Purge
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Anger
and
rage
consume
me
on
a
daily
basis.
My
OCD
seems
to
center
around
that
as
opposed
to
fear.
Lately,
I
have
been
having
a
very
hard
time
at
home
because
my
mother
in
law
moved
in
"temporarily"
eight
months
ago
and
I
simply
hate
her.
I
tried
SO
hard
to
be
understanding
and
helpful
and
loving.
But
her
laziness
and
lack
of
social
skills
and
herbasic
childish
behavior
is
killing
me.
I
know
I
need
to
talk
to
her
about
it
(again!)
but
I
am
having
such
a
hard
time
with
it
because
I
spend
most
of
my
days
screaming
at
her
in
my
head
and
obsessing
over
her
piles
and
piles
of
mess
in
my
houseand
the
way
she
runs
down
to
her
room
and
hides
out
when
it
it
is
time
to
clean.
Today
is
especially
hard
for
mebecause
I
told
her
it
was
time
to
clean,
but
instead
of
picking
up
her
billion
things
in
the
livingroom,
she
ran
down
to
hide
in
the
basement.
I
even
explained
to
her
that
the
mess
is
making
me
physically
ill.
Because
I
could
not
stand
it
one
second
longer
I
picked
up
most
of
her
stuff
so
I
could
vacuum.
I
think
she
knows
I
will
clean
it
so
she
just
leaves
it.
She
is
a
pig
and
I
can't
stand
it.
I
don't
like
feeling
this
way
toward
her.
I
don't
like
having
this
in
my
head.
I
don't
like
having
panic
attacks
when
I
know
I
have
to
come
home
from
work
and
be
with
her.
I
need
to
tell
her
some
of
this
stuff,
but
I
am
afraid
I
won't
be
able
to
be
calm
about
it.
I
am
afraid
if
I
start
letting
it
out
that
I
will
spew
my
hatred
and
frustration
and
rage
at
her
until
she
hates
me
even
more
than
she
does
right
now.
I
have
to
talk
myself
off
the
ledge
constantly
when
I
am
with
her.
I
can't
stand
her
incessant
talking
and
mess.
I
can't
stand
how
she
doesn't
seem
to
be
able
to
do
anything
on
her
own.
She
is
on
her
computer
16-18
hours
a
day
most
days
of
the
week.
Yet,
she
can't
figure
out
how
to
search
for
something
online
to
get
a
job.She
stalks
men
on
dating
sites
until
she
meets
a
scammer
then
gives
him
all
of
her
money.
I
just
want
to
lash
out.
I
want
to
hurt
her
they
way
she
is
hurting
me.
I
don't
like
my
sadistic
side
and
she
makes
it
very
hard
for
me
to
push
down
that
part
of
me
who
wants
to
hurt
her.
I
guess
I
will
do
what
I
have
always
done
and
keep
it
all
inside
me
till
I
breakdown
and
have
to
hide
in
my
room.
I
am
a
fool
for
letting
her
do
this
to
me.
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