By: mandylove97
Mood: Anxious
Date: Jul 21, 2013
Music: None

Feeling real anxious these past few days.. Don't know if it's cause of the nasty weather we have been getting where i live:( My mind just keeps racing! I always start to feel like harming myself is ok when i know it's not and i would never! And i always start to think well your never gonna get better! i have also been thinking about how i will react when my loved ones die... Sometimes i feel i can't make it but i know i can! I just can't wait to go back to the doctor. My dad keeps saying i shouldn't be put on medicine but i feel the medicine is what keeps me sane sometimes! And it gives me kind of a push. i know it wont fix everything but i don't know.. I think it's in my head



July 23, 2013, 12:15 am

Thank you guys! and Montesino I am currently taking welbutrin 200mg. I was also taking lexapro for awhile but i had to ween myself of because I was about to run out and with the way everything is now and days my parents can't afford to take me to a physiatrist. But my dad is going to take me back in about a week! thank the lord! 


We gain strength, and courage, and confidence by each experience in which we really stop to look fear in the face... we must do that which we think we cannot. - Eleanor Roosevelt.

July 22, 2013, 11:47 pm

Sorry to hear you are feeling so anxious. For me personally, I always get nervous when the weather gets bad--I start imagining the worst and well you know how that affects anxiety! I don't honestly think you would every harm yourself---it's just a manifestation of OCD. Threre was a period in my life where I was scared to be around knives because I thought I wanted to hurt my mom--which is the last thing I would ever do. OCD always wants to make you believe what you are thinking is true, but it's not. It's just a thought. Don't be discouraged and don't give up on the medication. Everyone will have their opinioin about medication, but if it helps you, then what's the harm. Hang in there, things will get brighter--believe me we have all been through this and are here for you.


Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass, it's learning to dance in the rain.

July 22, 2013, 12:09 pm
What medicine


Always remember, others may hate you, but those who hate you don't win unless you hate them-and then you destroy yourself. Richard Nixon