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Mia
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Mood:
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Dec 02, 2011
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Hello
there.
Today
is
Friday
and
I
am
at
my
parents
house
right
now.
I
am
having
some
trouble
typing
because
I'm
being
agressively
attacked
by
that
big
white
cat
that
I
posted
about
before
that
lives
at
my
parents
house
and
has
some
seperation
issues
or
osmething.
RIght
now
hes
pawing
my
arm
and
looking
at
me
and
saying"
wont
you
pet
me?
Im
so
lonely?
what
about
if
i
jam
my
face
into
yours?
will
that
make
you
love
me?
what
if
i
lick
your
fingers
while
your
typing?
Huh?"
Well
thats
not
gonna
work
on
me
buddy,
i've
got
a
blog
to
write.
Hmm,
this
cat
is
crazy.
Hes
like
8
so
hes
probably
94
it
cat
years
so
maybe
hes
going
senile
and
remembering
memories
from
his
youth
when
he
used
to
get
all
the
attention
from
everyone
when
he
was
a
cute
little
kitten
that
would
fit
inside
ofa
cerial
bowl.
Now
hes
not
so
cute
but
a
huge
mound
of
white
fur
and
a
pink
nose
and
very
large
grabby
paws.
Oh
but
I
love
him,
he
used
to
be
my
cat
once
upon
a
time.
When
i
picked
him
up
his
mom
woul
grab
all
of
his
brothers
and
sisters
and
leave
him
alone
by
himself,maybe
thats
why
hes
so
needy
,
they
were
all
gray
and
he
was
all
white
so
maybe
she
thought
he
wasnt
hers
or
something.
ANyways,
I"m
having
a
little
bit
of
a
tough
time
with
the
ocd
this
morning.
Not
to
gross
out
the
dudes
but
I
amon
my
period
and
it
seems
to
have
put
my
ocd
into
full
swing.
ANd
make
me
very
sad
and
random
moments.
Blasted
period.
Blasted
womenhood!
Last
night
I
went
with
the
fam
to
go
make
Christmas
decorations
and
they
are
pretty
cool
if
i
do
say
so
myself.
I
liked
mine
the
best,
and
i
think
everyonne
else
was
jealous
of
mine,
although
they
all
looked
almost
exactly
the
same
lol.
It
was
fun
to
hang
out
with
my
cousins
and
aunts
but
it
was
hard
because
they
dont
know
about
my
ocd
so
if
i
was
acting
strange
they
didnt
know
why
so
that
was
a
little
hard.
WHoa!
Big
white
kitty
just
lunged
at
my
face!
Today
I
am
going
out
to
lunch
with
laura,
my
friend
not
my
therapist.
Now
that
i've
revealed
my
therapist
name
and
her
name
is
the
same,
just
assuume
if
i
mention
laura
that
I'm
talking
about
my
friend,
and
nto
my
therapist.
We
went
to
my
dads
cousins
last
night
and
her
house
is
like
the
size
o
a
small
mansion,
or
maybe
actually
the
size
of
a
huge
mansion,
it
was
ridiculous.
Her
husband
is
adoctor
and
she
is
a
nurse,
so
they
know
about
me
and
my
ocd
because
thats
who
i
originally
went
to
see
about
getting
meds.
SO
thats
a
little
embarrasing
but
she
didnt
bring
it
up
to
me
or
act
like
anything
was
different.
Yesterday,
my
cousin
sarah
who
does
also
not
have
a
job
at
the
moment,
was
talkign
about
how
bored
she
was
and
then
my
grandma
was
like
"well
why
dont
you
get
a
job!!"
all
serious
like,
to
which
she
said
she
was
jokig,
and
i
tried
to
shrink
down
as
small
as
possible
and
then
later
she
noticed
me
and
she
said
"
Hey!
You
too!
Why
dont
you
go
get
a
job!"
to
which
everyone
laughed,
to
which
i
replied
"I
have
an
interview
on
monday!
Ahhh!"
I
actually
do
with
a
bank
which
im
nervous
about
and
i
dont
know
if
i
am
ready
for.
Its
only
on
the
phone,
but
after
phone
interviews
follows
real
interviews
so
im
a
little
nervous,
i
didnt
expect
them
to
call
so
soon.
I
dont
want
that
hanging
over
my
head
all
December,
especially
if
im
not
well
enough
by
january
to
start
working
.
We
will
see
how
it
goes.
I
just
found
out
my
cousin
goes
to
the
same
gym
i
go
to
"yay!"
so
now
i
have
two
people
i
can
go
with,her
and
dawn.
Which
is
nice.
They
have
tvs
on
the
treadmills
but
i
couldnt
figure
out
how
to
use
it
yesterday
so
i
did
not
in
fear
of
embarrassing
myself
in
front
of
the
five
other
people
that
were
there
at
the
time.
I
hope
my
ocd
improves.
I
havent
saidi
the
words
yesterday
because
every
time
the
alarm
went
off,
i
was
around
other
people
and
didnt
want
to
say
them,
and
when
i
thought
about
it
later,
i
felt
like
i
wanted
to
say
them,
so
I
didnt
say
them.
This
ocd
is
very
tricky.
It
warps
my
thoughts.
FOr
example,
if
I
was
going
to
think
"
i
want
that
cheese"
my
ocd
would
trick
into
meanly
saying
"
I
want
that
cheese!
and
you
cant
stop
me
from
eating
it
and
I
dont
care
if
it
hurts
your
feelings
but
i
want
that
cheese"
I
would
feel
that
I
was
having
these
feelings
towards
God
and
Jesus.
So
its
confusing
because
I
knew
I
wanted
the
cheese,
the
thought
didnt
come
out
of
no
where
so
it
makes
it
very
hard
to
distinguish
if
it
was
me
or
the
ocd.
I
dont
know
if
that
makes
sense
to
people
without
ocd,
but
thats
the
best
I
can
emplain
it
right
now.
And
the
cheese
sentance
does
sound
silly,
but
i
actually
do
have
thoughts
like
these.
THe
ocd
effects
everythign
that
i
think
about.
Especially
things
that
I
want
to
do,
or
have
had
ocd
thoughts
about
in
the
past.
Andre
asked
my
therapisst
the
other
day
what
he
should
do
when
im
having
a
moment.
I
think
i
told
you
this
already.
She
said
you
can
interrupt
me
once
but
if
i
tell
you
to
leave
me
alone,
then
you
leave
me
alone
and
dont
say
another
word.
I
have
to
solve
the
ocd
thoughts
myself,
no
one
else
can
do
it
for
me,
usually
when
people
interrupt
it
isnt
helpful
but
every
now
and
then
its
brought
me
out
of
my
thought
process
and
made
me
look
at
things
differently.
SO
andre
and
my
family
keep
trying,
because
they
love
me.
I
want
to
put
up
a
picture
of
teh
craft
i
made
but
i
dont
know
if
i
feel
like
dealing
with
the
pain
in
the
butt
it
is
to
get
it
on
the
computer
and
save
it
as
a
jpg
and
upload
it.
argh.
im
lazy.
I
have
to
shower
in
exactly
9
minutes
so
im
ready
to
pick
laura
up
and
go
eat
some
food.
We
are
going
to
Panera,
which
will
be
delicious
because
it
usually
is.
Laura
is
very
pregnant
and
i
cant
wait
to
see
her
and
her
belly
and
talk
about
her
shower
and
that
brenda
lady
who
outdid
eveyrone
on
her
gift.
lol
I
cant
wait
to
see
that
baby.
I
hope
hes
not
born
when
i
am
in
florida
because
i
want
to
wait
outside
in
the
waiting
room
with
laura
and
steves
family
and
try
to
get
the
first
glimpse
of
that
baby.
I
told
laura
shes
not
allowed
to
show
him
to
any
othe
rfriends
untill
i
get
back,
which
i
was
joking,
and
she
knows,
but
i
thought
it
was
funny.
PLus
she
can
send
me
pictures.
Laura
has
a
baby
picture
that
i
like
to
make
fun
of
where
she
looks
like
yoda
and
her
nose
is
all
red
and
i
like
to
make
fun
of
it
all
the
time.
Its
hilarious.
I
have
a
bunch
of
baby
pictures
where
i
look
like
a
boy
because
apparently
i
did
because
even
though
my
ears
were
pierced
and
iwas
wearing
dresses
people
would
still
tell
my
mom
what
a
cute
son
she
had.
Maybe
i
do
look
like
a
boy
underneath
all
this
makeup.
When
i
was
in
swim
class
and
we
all
had
to
shower
afterwards
this
stupid
b
word,
pardon
my
french,
told
me
i
basically
looked
like
a
boy
with
out
makeup
on.
Whats
ironic,
is
shes
ot
very
cute
and
a
year
later
ended
up
having
plastic
surgery
on
her
face.
Im
getting
really
angry
right
now
lol.
I
hope
someone
in
her
life
tells
her
shes
ugly.
Hmm,
maybe
thats
too
mean.
I
also
had
this
other
girl
in
art
class
while
i
was
being
the
model,
announce
to
the
whole
class,
"
no
matter
what
i
do,
when
i
draw
her
she
just
ends
up
looking
fat"
Now
shes
like
a
model
in
new
york
or
something,what
a
stupid
"see
you
next
tuesday"
She
was
actually
friends
with
my
sister
too,
who
was
more
popular
than
i
was.
People
when
she
was
a
frshman
would
come
up
to
me
and
be
like,
you
look
like
"....
...."
(im
not
saying
her
real
name)
who
was
two
years
younger
than
me
and
didnt
know
who
i
was
even
though
they
were
in
my
grade,
and
I
would
be
like
"yeah,
i
know,
shes
my
sister,
and
ive
gone
to
school
with
you
for
six
years
and
had
like
eight
classes
with
you,
you
turd."
I
didnt
actually
say
that
last
part.
But
then
i
would
go
home
and
cry
like
i
did
a
lot
in
highschool
the
first
two
years.
I
did
whatever
I
could
to
miss
school.
I
think
i
mentally
made
myself
physcially
ill
becuase
I
would
actually
feel
sick.
Well
it
is
now
11
02
so
i
must
go
because
I
dont
want
to
keep
a
pregnant
lady
waiting
on
lunch
time,
Im
just
kidding
laura=) 
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