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Need advice on situation

By: jeneva5
Mood: Fearful
Date: Jun 24, 2012
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My therapist,Kathi, and I are kind of stagnant. I mean she does help and she's helped me a lot in the last almost 8 years, but I also feel as though our relationship is more of a friendship thantherapeutic. It helps to go to her weekly to talk but little is ever offered that is new or too helpful. That being said, there was a psychologist I seemed to attach to while I was in the hospital program at Northridge back in 08. We've kept in touch over the years I've always respected her and have felt kind of attached. Well, she moved to North Carolina last year. Anyway, I have recently contacted her with frustration towards Kathi and she said that she'd be willing to take me on as a client. We would do phone sessions or skype sessions. I told her that I know for sure that I cannot leave Kathi. It's a very deep, rooted relationship and attachment that I cannot see myself leaving. I'm just not strong enough and I don't know that I'll ever be. I feel like I would kill myself if I couldn't see her anymore. We've been through so much over the last 8 years. She knows everything and i can't lose her. I mentioned that it would be ideal to see both of them and she said she'd be willing to do that...either every other week or once a month, if Kathi agrees too. It is going to be a bit more money though, because Janolyn charges more. Although this seems ideal, there are a lot of concerns I have and I am very stuck and overwhelmed with the decision I need to make. First of all, it will be very hard to not have that face to face contact with a therapist and I'm not a good phone/skype person. I feel like I need that. Also knowing she is all the way on the other side of the country is hard for me and my attachment and ocd issues. I know I'll get attached to her and that is hell. I will I go from seeing Kathi weekly to every other? She said that it's sometimes hard to have dual therapist because issues arise between siding up with one therapist if the other says something you don't agree with, etc. I see issues like who would I go to when I have problems? Kathi is a lot more available, while Janolyn (that's her name) is more professional and has more boundaries which might be hard for me, but I know is necessary to atherapeuticrelationship. Janolyn has a holistic mind/body/spiritual technique which might be good. I just thought it would be beneficial to gain a new approach/perspective to things and still have Kathi there as well. I guess all this is moot if Kathi does not agree to it. I see her Thursday and if I decide I am interested in pursuing this I have to someone come up with a way to bring it up to her nicely. I don't have any idea how to because I feel like she will be hurt and feel like she isn't helping and will abandon me. If she doesn't agree, I don't know what I'll do and if she does agree I will be worried she's hurt or mad at me and will retreat more. I'm just a mess about this right now. I'm very depressed, anxious and overwhelmed and I feel like hurting myself. I am horrible with decisions and change and this is a big one. I'm leaning towards trying out the every other week thing with both, if Kathi agrees, but I guess I'm just asking you for some advice on this, if you have any.

Thanks all!



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From: jeneva5
June 25, 2012, 4:30 pm

Thank you both.  I appreciate your replies.



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From: chez
June 25, 2012, 9:33 am

Im sure what ever you decide will be the best for you sorry ive no advice im alot like you terrible with making decisions let us know what you decide in the end and Good luck.


 


Also try not to hurt yourself i know it's hard but please be careful



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