My ex-fiancé

By: Montesino
Mood: Don't know
Date: Nov 26, 2012
Music: You and me life house

I would appreciate it if I could vent about one topic. Five years ago I met a woman that I thought was going to be my soul mate. We dated engaged and that's the last time I remember any semblance of happiness. I think the reason is that she was bulimic and alcoholic and could understand OCD. Anyway three years after our breakup I still think about her and she will never speak to me again. I just wanted to tell her I was sorry for everything. Ever since she left my OCD has taken a turn for the worse to the point where I had to go on disability. Anyway, her name is Angie and I still love her even though she will never speak to me again. Truth is she never loved me like I did her. I guess it's time to let go



From: renewed
November 27, 2012, 8:26 pm

Being hurt is no good....of course by our age we know what that is like....I find comfort in the fact that each and every time I am hurt....I learn something by it. How to appreciate the good times not to take advantage of peace and how not to create chaos....ah....who am I kidding LOL ? There is always one love we cannot let go of. We can learn to respond differently to those feelings and thoughts though... I have found time to be the best thing....But running into them seems to undo all the healing sometimes....hang in there....



November 27, 2012, 1:12 am

I think we all have what I call a "catalyst". Meaning that there is something that triggers our OCD and sends it sky-rocketing. This may be the case for you.


Though it wont be today, someday I'll hope again. And there'll be beauty from pain.