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By:
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Godlygirl12
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Mood:
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Lonely
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Date:
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Aug 14, 2007
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Music:
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Disciple "Things Left Unsaid"
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Today
I
don't
know
exactly
why,
but
I
felt
low
and
lonely...
maybe
it's
because
of
work,
idk.
It's
weird
cuz
things
are
looking
up
for
me
right
now...
my
dad
has
been
better,
actually
hugged
me
before
AND
after
I
went
on
my
vacation
with
my
mom's
family!
:D
I
was
happy
that
he
did
in
one
way,
and
then
later
I
keep
thinking
to
myself,
"How
long
will
this
last?"
My
mom
told
my
dad
earlier
that
I
wanted
a
boyfriend
so
that
I
could
get
that
affection
that
I
don't
get
from
my
dad,
his
response
was
"you
(my
mom)
fill
her
head
with
that
bs"
But
then
later
he
hugged
me
before
I
left
on
my
trip.
The
thing
is
with
my
dad,
you
never
know
what
he
is
going
to
do,
he
is
unpredictable...
he
has
gone
"off"
before
by
throwing
things
around
the
house
or
verbally
slaughtering
someone
without
any
fore
warning.
So
I
guess
I
just
don't
know
how
long
this
will
last.
I
find
just
knowing
you
are
loved
UNCONDITIONALLY
is
the
MOST
important
thing
to
me
in
this
life.
I
NEED
to
know
that
I
am
loved
and
cared
about,
just
like
everyone
else
does...I
get
so
emotional
about
it
though,
sometimes
I
just
want
to
crawl
outside
of
my
own
skin
and
just
be
someone
else.
Someone
who
trusts
God
more
and
doesn't
worry
about
the
past
or
the
future.
It's
hard
to
change,
even
into
a
better
person,
when
you
are
so
used
to
throwing
yourself
the
BEST
pity
parties
and
just
swimming
in
your
own
pool
of
tears...feeling
numb,
because
that
is
what
you
are
used
to,
that's
what
you
know,
and
even
though
you
want
better
for
yourself,
you
still
feel
"comfortable"
being
numb...
can
anyone
relate???
I
would
appreciate
any
comments
on
this
thankx
and
God
bless!
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