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I hate me
I
hate
everything
about
me...I
hate
my
brain
and
how
I
think,
the
mood
swings...feeling
like
I
can't
take
the
grief
and
sorrow
anymore.
At
best
I
have
days
where
I
can
feel
numb
and
maybe
even
a
brief
glimpse
of
joy
but
it
doesn't
last
and
it's
hard
to
come
by.
I
hate
being
depressed,
I
hate
not
being
able
to
work
because
I
have
seizures
and
I
feel
crippled
by
my
depression
and
anxiety.
I
hate
this
mundane
existence
I
live...I
went
to
the
movies
not
too
long
ago
with
my
boys
and
it
made
me
happy
to
get
out
but
my
husband
put
me
on
a
guilt
trip
because
he
had
to
take
the
girls
to
Chuck
E
Cheese.
It's
only
the
2nd
time
I've
gotten
to
take
the
boys
to
the
movies.
I
deserve
to
get
out.
I
cannot
drive
and
I
hate
it.
I
feel
useless
and
helpless.
Meds
aren't
helping,
doctors
aren't
helping,
my
husband
says
he
gets
angry
just
looking
at
me
that's
how
he
feels
about
me.
If
it
weren't
for
my
beautiful
children
I
couldn't
keep
doing
this....I
just
want
my
beautiful
Devon
back
and
it
is
killing
me,
literally
killing
me...a
slow
painful
death...I
hate
this...if
you
think
your
life
is
so
bad
well
try
to
walk
into
my
shoes.
I
know
others
have
it
worse
than
me
too
and
I
try
to
remind
myself
of
that
but
right
now
all
I
can
feel
is
ANGER....
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