Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD)

    Being a good father and a good husband means taking the risk of getting the help you need . I urge you to seek out help in your community and to research OCD yourself as well , perhaps you will find some techniques to help self soothe while you are trying to contemplate what your actions should be at this point. If you need to talk you can always PM me. God Bless you and your family.

Erin

I understand how you are feeling, over thinking things so much you get ur self to some ridiculous conclusions!

Just a little example i am currently spending everyday trying to figure out how to tell my boss i will be leaving work in August! She is a lovely manager and i know i have no reason to obsess over this as its 2 months away but i have got to the point i am analyzing every little thing i am going to say to her and eveything she could possible say back to me, ive been doing this for a couple of months now and have got my self to the point where i have blown this whole thing out of proportion! Ocd makes us believe that these thoughts we are having are rational, when they are not! Decisions and simple things people manage to do so easily seem to cause a great deal of stress to us! 

I really dont know if it will help but it is one of the only things that seens to keep my thoughts under control and i know everyone is different, but like a previous comment, writting things down, for me its like iv got all these thoughts im trying to organise,sort,understand going through my mind constantly and just by writting these down nice and neatly i feel... ok there out of my mind on a piece of paper ready for me to chose when i focus on them! Another thing i was recently told which had quite an effect on me was somebody telling me, these thoughts you are having, they are just your ocd compleetly bull****ing you its all lies!! thoses fears your having wont come true you need to give ur self a shake and remind yourself, out loud, that these thoughts are so irrational.... Just realised i wrote a lot, sorry but i hope it helps, even a little.

I feel like you wrote exactly how I've been feeling for so long now. Afraid I am going to drive away the very people I need the most with my overanalyzing ,fearfulness, and negativity. And I AM on meds, have been trying all different kinds for years, and seeing a psychotherapist. Feel like the therapy helps...until I start thinking how I am paying someone to care, or pretend to. There-a perfect example of how my mind works. Or doesn't.