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God, that felt good!

By: sherri3
Mood: Happy
Date: Sep 09, 2008
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I am very nonconfrontational with people and I can't remember a time when I wasn't concerned with being liked by everyone.   At work, I am always the positive little worker bee - and nobody has any idea that I am often filled with anxiety,  just trying to make it through the day.   It can be so exhausting to do my job - while trying to hide my ocd.   But I do a very good job - working extra hard to make up for the times I get lost in my ocd. 

I work for a wedding decorator and last week I was asked to work almost double my regular hours because we had a very big job.  So, I turned my own schedule upside down to accomodate her - as I always do.   Jump to Saturday at about 2:00 and I had worked for about 7 hours without a break  (mainly because of her poor planning as to how much we needed to get done in the time we had) and I made the mistake of putting the wrong number of balloons in the bouquets at the entrance.  ( I was off by 2)   She snapped at me for this minor thing - mostly out of her own stress - and I had finally had it!      

I  stood up for myself like I never had before!   I told her just how much I had done for her - and I was not about to accept being treated without respect .  I couldn't believe the words as I heard them leave my mouth!   She immediately  apologized .  When I got to my car, I started to cry and I could not stop.  I guess I cried for all the times I felt so unappreciated and all my built up frustration,    It was such a wonderful release!    I have a new respect for myself and that part of my ocd - that has to please everyone- is shattered!  God, that felt good!!!   

 

 



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From: tziel
September 27, 2008, 3:51 am

Neat success story!



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From: elsie99
September 20, 2008, 2:57 am

Reading this made me feel so good!   Wish I could've been there to see you mouth off to this woman.  Yeah, the stress will make you do crazy things - not you, your boss.  Gosh, crankiness is just awful, isn't it? 

And I'm happy you had that cry.  Was it cleansing?  Oh, Sherri, you're so funny and brave and such a pleasure to get to know. 

Sometimes people need to be reminded that they're not the only ones who're on this earth trying to live the best kind of life they can.  Too bad she doesn't know about your anxiety/OCD, but on the other hand, how would we know what that other person is going through, right? 

Please post more!  I need to read more of your stuff.



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From: sherri3
September 10, 2008, 10:17 pm

Thanks guys.  Ya, this feeling is totally new to me.   By the way buffster, it never ocurred to me that my blog title may have suggested something else;)  How dissappointing for everyone who thought that -  to be stuck reading about my job!   Sherri



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From: buffster
September 10, 2008, 12:27 am

..I really have to admit 2 have been expecting something else when I came in here from reading the blog title ha jk..u know..nothing is worse than being disrespected & marginalized by someone or someone's when we know we are much more deserving of basic human consideration..kudo's to you for confronting your demons *iiteral & figurative* & standing up for what is rightfully urs..



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September 9, 2008, 10:32 pm

i was just telling somebody the other day that it does feel good to just go off on someone that deserves it sometimes!!it does huh? i highly reccomend it....



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