Does anyone know how ocd starts??

By: CamyKnight
Mood: Tired
Date: Dec 28, 2012
Music: None

I've actually began to have strange thoughts and unusual rituals since 2011. I'm not sure where it came from. I wasn't always this way. I was like well, a very hygienic personn, i always waz...but like now its totally different. Im scared to out off the house sometimes cos im scared that my shoes will get dirty from the ground. i mean i know the ground is dirty, but im scared that i'll step on someting lyk gum or other stuff like tissues or napkins. does that sound weird? :( i know

i also avoid sitting in public places cos of all d germs. i used to help around d house wid chores n stuff, but now i just sit around all day cos im afraid of getting germs. now ppl think i got lazy. often i feel like ive made something dirty then i dont want my family to touch it. i know its weird, but i dont know how to stop it. i ddont evn know where this all came from or how it started. i cn see my family getting affected by it n im getting affected by it. its annoying n its a hindrance to all d things i wanna do. i cant evn enjoy going to d mall anymore. ocd istaking over my life. i wanna get rid of it.i dont wantto do this to myself nmy family anymore!its just exhausting...



February 10, 2013, 11:03 pm

tnx for all the comments :) it really helps me, since no one wants to help me witth my problems. thank u



From: plep001
December 29, 2012, 1:17 am

for me an accident triggered depression then i spiralled downward from that the overt OCD kicked in for me from bulimia all the mess with cleaning up all of a sudden food was dirty toileting was dirty then i would obesse for ages about germs and contamination


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December 28, 2012, 12:57 pm

I've been unable to figure that out for years, but I haven't able to get the right answer as yet. How it started, why, how it developed, and got so authoritative of me. I wish I'd the answers. I understand your situation. The family has to suffer because of my disorder, and that hurts the most. Wish I'd some answers, and yet better some solution for your issue. By solution, I mean the real ones. Otherwise, "get out of the house", "mix with people", "expose yourself to external environment", etc. advices are quite handy. But that's all easier said than done. Hope you'd be able to find a way out of it. The sooner, the best. All the best.


Who you set out to be sometimes nowhere resembles to who you wound up being.