more thoughts
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By:
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nikkars
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Mood:
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Fearful
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Date:
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Jun 24, 2012
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Music:
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Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone
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First
of
all
I
thank
you
all
who
commented
on
my
last
blog.
You
made
me
feel
like
someone
understood
what
I
was
and
still
am
going
through.
It's
a
great
feeling,
especially
when
I've
only
ever
talked
to
one
other
person
who
knows
what
I'm
going
through. Today
my
cat
still
has
diarrhea.
He's
had
it
since
Thursday.
I
work
in
a
vet's
office
and
I
went
to
school
to
be
a
vet
tech
and
so
I
talked
to
the
doctor
I
work
for
and
he
told
me
what
kind
of
medicine
to
give
him.
I
gave
him
the
first
dose
today
at
4:27.
I
plan
on
giving
him
another
dose
in
the
morning.
It
is
kaopectin
I
think,
but
I
am
hoping
it's
just
the
kind
with
kaolin
and
pectin
in
it
because
the
human
kaopectate
contains
bismuth
salicylate
and
cats
should
not
have
that.
I
know
I'm
boring
you
with
these
thoughts
but
it
helps
to
type
it
out.
I
trust
the
doctor
I
work
for
but
I
still
worry
I
will
hurt
my
cat. Tomorrow
I
leave
to
go
to
Georgia
for
a
concert
and
then
to
NC
and
I
will
not
be
back
until
Thursday.
This
is
making
me
very
stressful.
My
cat's
health
is
of
the
upmost
importance
to
me
and
I'm
afraid
that
I
will
not
be
doing
all
I
can
for
him
while
I
am
gone.
I
am
worried
my
mother
will
not
be
able
to
medicate
him
and
I
NEED
him
to
get
better.
The
stress
this
has
caused
me
is
crazy.
stress
triggers
my
compulsions
I
guess
and
it
is
really
hard
to
deal
with. Now
I
am
struggling
with
the
need
to
straighten
my
hair.
I
have
told
myself
I
won't
do
it
until
the
morning
hoping
this
will
help
him
get
better,
even
though
I
know
it
won't.
I
am
afraid
if
I
do
it
tonight
he
won't
get
better
and
I
can't
be
responsible
for
that.
I
want
to
do
all
I
can
for
him.
I'm
still
doing
other
things
to
try
to
deal
with
the
stress
and
help
him
but
I
know
these
things
are
not
related
to
the
situation
and
it's
SO
hard
to
do
them
or
not
do
them. I
hate
this
feeling.
I
don't
know
if
it's
helplessness
or
if
it's
just
fear
but
I
really
hate
it.
I
want
him
to
get
better
and
I
want
to
go
on
my
trip
and
have
a
good
time.
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