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Finally Happiness
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By:
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Crazydancechick
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Mood:
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Thankful
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Date:
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Mar 10, 2010
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Music:
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The Anzac by Adam Brand
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Over
two
months
ago
I
blogged
about
being
confused,
liking
a
guy
but
not
knowing
what
to
do
and
general
"ahhhhhh
I
want
a
guy,
but
fun"
confusion.
I
was
frustrated
on
the
grounds
of
never
wanting
to
be
lonely
for
the
rest
of
my
life
and
not
wanting
further
work than
I
already
have.
I
had
a
guy
that
made
me
work
over
time
for
what
I
wanted
and
if
I
settled
it
was
for
not
even
a
quarter
of
what
I
really
wanted
in
a
relationship.
Well,
today
his
gone
and
I'm
here
to
blog
differently
than
then.
They
say
that
good
things
come
in
odd
packages,
good
things
come
to
those
who
wait,
and
that
what
your
waiting
for
will
come
when
you
least
expect
it. Some
of you
have
followed
me
through
my
blogs
over
the
years
and
know
that
I've
been
down,
but
determined.
I
took
myself
"off
the
market'
to
work
on
myself
so
I
could
be
the
best
partner
I
could
be
for
someone
in
the
future.
I
have
gone
from
a
"lasher",
angry,
upset,
majorily
confused,
emotional, imature
young
adult into
a
placid,
talk-about,
emotionally
intouch, lovable
young
woman. I've
waited,
I've
been
patient
and
finally....FINALLY....I'm
being
rewarded.
It
was
January
29th
2010
and
I
was
to
meet
a
guy
off
the
internet...off
a
dating
site
*sigh*!!
I was
to
meet
several
possible
partners
that
weekend,
but
as
it
turned
out
none
turned
up
except
for
Mr.
Friday
Night.
I
went
into
the
date
on
that Friday
night
thinking
that
I
will
gain
a
really
good
friend,
but
nothing
else.
Cutting
a
long
story
short...after
text
msgs
and
phone
calls
the
next
day
and
days
after
that
we
decided
that
being
friends
was
not
going
to
satisfy
either
of
us.
We
became
a
couple
and
a
few
months
later
it's
like
I'm
a
princess
in
a
movie.
As
a
little
girl
I
would
watch
movies
and
would
have
in
my
mind
what
I
would
like
in
a
relationship
when
I
got
older,
through
watching
my
sisters
and
parents
act
out
their
love
with
their
loved
ones,
it
was
becoming
stronger
what
I
wanted,
but
I
was
coming
to
the
realisation
that
there
is
no
one
for
me.
As
I
thought
that,
I
did
my
usual
'kick
in
the
butt',
encouraging,
MAJOR
faith
burst
and
off
I
went
to
find
someone
that
IS
out
there
for
me
and
he
came
to
me.
As
he
(Ashley)
sat
at
the
kitchen
table,
a
few
nights
ago,
helping
my
mother
do
something
that
would
normally
be
my
job,
I
lipped
to
him
"I
love
you"
and
warm
tingles
went
through
my
body
when
he
looked
in
my
eyes
and
lipped
"I
love
you
too".
His
support
is
never
ending
and
more
than
a
movie
can
articulate.
His
biggest
thing
this
year
is
to
support
me
through
my
last
year
of
uni.
I've
never
heard
those
words
from
someone
before.
"Even
if
I
have
to
come
out
here
and
sit
while
you
finish
that
assignment,
I'll
be
here".
They
say
you
"just
know"
when
you've
found
"THE"
one....I
never
understood
that
until
now.
OCD
is
mine
and
everyones
on
here-
journey
that
we
don't
understand
and
something
we
have
close
and
find
hard
to
express.
To
Ash
it's
another
loving
trait
of
mine.
My
smile,
giggle,
and
appearance
wherever
he
is,
is
his
everything.
I
am
his
world
and I
want
to
do
everything
for
him
to
know
he
is
mine.
I
am
finally
getting
into
my
head
I'm
no
longer
alone.
I
have
someone that
wants
to
help
me
and help
in
my
duties
helping my
parents,
getting
through
uni
and
getting
through my
struggle
of
not
understanding
my
place
in
life.
I
use
to
cry
because
I
was
sad,
confused,
angry,
distroyed
and
unworthy.
I
now
cry
because
I
have
everything
I
have
ever
wanted
and
the
emotion
needs
somewhere
to
come
out.
I
now
know
I'm
settling
for
not
just
what
I
wanted
in
the
perfect boyfriend, but
more
than
I
could
EVER
have
imagined.
A
tear
of
saddness
can
turn
into
a
tear
of
happiness,
you
just
have
to
find
the
right hanky
to
take
them
away.
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