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Anxious
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By:
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dru82
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Mood:
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Angry
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Date:
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Jan 30, 2007
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Music:
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None
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All
day
today
I
couldn't
help
but
be
out
of
focus,
bored,
irritated
and
stressed.
How
do
you
stop
thinking
about
what
it
is
you
need
to
do,
every
minute
of
the
day,
planning
it
out
in
your
mind
and
seeing
yourself
doing
it?
I
try
to
open
up
a
book
and
read
and
study
and
I
can't.
I
don't
even
want
to
try.
I
try
but
then
I
quit...I
feel
like
I'm
never
gonna
have
stability
or
sanity
in
my
life.
I
can't
manage
personal
(romantic)
relationships,
I
can't
control
my
anger
or
my
repetitive
thoughts,
I
can't
just
let
the
day
happen.
I'm
taking
four
classes
and
I
decided
that
the
major
I
was
going
to
go
for
is
going
to
be
too
much
for
me.
It
doesn't
seem
like
I
enjoy
doing
anything.
I
don't
like
working
with
the
public
or
doing
retail
(that
is
a
nightmare).
I
can't
seem
to
discipline
myself
at
home
so
that
my
mind
doesn't
spin.
When
I
used
to
do
heavy
drugs
(and
I
know
this
is
gonna
sound
bad)
I
didn't
worry
about
all
this.
It
was
just
moment
to
moment.
Minus
the
health
problems
and
jail
time,
it
was
really
carefree.
So
now
I'm
trying
to
figure
out
how
to
regain
that
lifestyle
(minus
the
drugs)
and
still
be
dilligent
enough
to
pass
my
classes.
I'm
a
black
and
white
thinker,
so
it's
like
it
has
to
be
either
freak
out
from
every
detail
and
be
an
over-achiever,
or
I
don't
give
a
rats
butt!
Where's
this
middle
ground
people
seem
to
be
finding?
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