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RazzleDazzle
"Never attach your happiness to anything you can lose. ~ C.S. Lewis"
My URL: http://www.ocdtribe.com/RazzleDazzle

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DATING STATUS: Engaged
MEMBER SINCE: December 3, 2012
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GENDER: Female
LOCATION: Canada
AGE: 43
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STAR SIGN: Leo
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I hit a down spell... not with ocd, with my life and more so with my struggle to realize my full, real self and embrace my identity - glitches and all. I wasn't born a bright light just to hide. If someone doesn't like the light they can turn away, wear shades, or do whatever they need to do. I am cool with that. I just won't be pulling the shades down on myself any time soon.

I have harm OCD, with a lot of forms of checking behaviour. It is well controlled and I do well with it for the most part. I love helping others learn how to do the same and how to love their own light. Shine on!!

I have ADHD. I don't call it a disease, it is a difference but one that means I don't fit well into the way the non-adhd world works and that causes much stress and frustration. I used to think I was stupid. Not any more.

I also have a rare physical disability. It means I sprain, tear, dislocate and sublux most joints. I have had so many tumors I've lost count and I have ended up in the ER with broken arteries. I live with the risk of my aorta just bursting suddenly someday. This past summer I had the latest of 3 major surgeries, and it removed a part of my kidney.

I am ok. Don't ever feel bad for me. I feel blessed most of the time, not like I have some unfair lot. As hard as it can be some days, I feel I have a very rich perspective on life because of my struggles.


*Beagles*AllDogBreeds*CottonCandy*SunShine*Rainbows*
*Granola*IceCream*Hugs*Happiness*Laughter*Snuggles*
*TheSoftSOftBehindMyGirlsFloppyEars*
*JacobeansSnore*ChubbyAnimals*DancingLikeAFool*CAKE*Chocolate*
*WarmBedOnAColdNight*RunningWater*BirdsSinging*
*GratefulPeople*Compassion*BrightColours*
*NorthernLights*Icebergs*

You. Yes, You there... I don't like you. Hahahaha, don't be so CEREAL. I hate onions, liars, arrogance,mean people, inequality,passive aggressiveness. I also dislike getting a dog hair stuck in my foot like a splinter.



Also not much of a fan of those who like to drag someone down but don't offer much help to others. I am not perfect but I try to help and contribute positively here. I've been through SO much that I have zero tolerance for crap attitudes.


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July 18, 2014, 9:55 pm
Hi

Just wondering how you are? j

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Take it and live through it... it's going to be OK...
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From: plep001
May 22, 2014, 2:21 am
Thanks for your input and feedback. my dad wants to come along to my next drs meeting to state how i really am that whilst eating lunch i can hradly stand on two feet as im usually overwhelmed by anxiety and the effects of meds making me drowsy. so after lunch i take a short hours nap. i still determined to return to study try and make a better quality life for myself. i now have another psychiatry appointment as ACC the insuers did not like the 1st psychiatrist they sent me to stating that i should go back to work on a garaual basis over 15 to 18 months period. for me to work i need to change my meds as employers won'
t like me sl;eeping during the day.


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From: plep001
May 2, 2014, 9:42 pm
hi thanks for taking time to respond to my blog. i really appreciate your input. i actually intended to return to study at least part time although at the moment i still have too much stuff that im continually trying to sell get rid of. its taking time and that is taking its own effect on me. my acc advocate says acc are experts at vocational rehabilatation and now its up to them to both support and help me. i got suicidal as my dr gave me this lecture about being on welfare so long if there was no welfare or acc then i would be back wolrking a long time ago. both my folks who have lived with me thru this don't agree with that remark. nor do they takem kindly to my drs ignorance. and she has demonstrated ignorance in a big way its as if she was waiting for the right time to attack me. im doing my best to hang in there my mum is away this weekend which is tough for me. tonite my dad wants to take me out to dinner. i will say here the only thing i evr wanted to do was go into the armed forces but my condition is such thats out of the question. drugs have made me lethargic also.

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From: Snell
April 25, 2014, 5:24 am
Hey Bon it's ok I'm always here for you if you need us I hope and pray that things get better for you take care mate

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Live for today
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From: her_ocd
April 22, 2014, 8:15 pm
Your Welcome!

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You have to fight through some tough days, to earn the best days of your life.
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No idea. I like a lot, dislike a lot more. I like the most awful pop/hiphop/dance/trance/crap when I need to get my groove on. Right now I am a big fan of Joss Stone's Colour Me Free.

I've read too many to list. Really. I'd read so many of the major classics, most Shakespeare, and whatever else I could get, before leaving high school. Now I find reading difficult because of the ADHD and OCD. I don't like fiction much.

I don't like movies much.

BEING %$#@! GRATEFUL FOR EVERY DAY NO MATTER HOW MISERABLE I FEEL BECAUSE I AM SO FLIPPIN' LUCKY. Yes, L-U-C-K-Y. I can turn on a tap to get clean water. I don't have to worry about crocodiles. I can go use a bathtub in safety and not have to worry about tigers killing me in the woods. I can turn on the heat. I can buy food or even go to a foodbank... but even then, at least I can go to one instead of dying on the roadside or being filmed while dying, covered in flies, to air on some western nation's charity fund raiser on TV.

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