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Laurenzo
"The wealthiest person is a pauper at times compared to the man with a satisfied mind."
My URL: http://www.ocdtribe.com/Laurenzo

JOB: Artist
SMOKE: No
DRINK: Socially
RELIGION: Catholic
ORIENTATION: Straight
DATING STATUS: Hopelessly in love
MEMBER SINCE: September 29, 2010
POINTS: [ 21 ]
GENDER: Female
LOCATION: California, United States
AGE: 28
VIEWS: 62
STAR SIGN: Cancer
LAST LOGIN: 01.20.11




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I have had pure OCD since I was 3-years-old. I feel guilty all the time. I feel it even before my brain has caught up with a reason why. My guilt drives me to confess and think about things over and over again until I've "fixed" it. It never stays fixed for long, though. I worry about every thought I have, especially bad thoughts or thoughts about hurting or cheating or doing something awful. I feel like crying about 50% of the time and the rest of it is spent praying I'll be able to go about my day and function without my OCD paralyzing me. Speaking of, I actually used to be paralyzed. I spent six years in bed as a child due to a rare blood disorder that affects the nervous system. I almost died. That's another part of my guilt. I should be happy and feel fortunate, lucky to be alive and able to walk. I try to be, but a lot of the time I just feel horrible.

I do stand-up comedy (wasn't my opening a knee slapper? Eh? Ahem.) I love movies and I just finished making a documentary last summer. I love to eat food and be outside and spend time with my family. I have an amazing boyfriend who tries his best to understand this beast that is OCD. That's about it. Just trying to keep my giant Scottish head above water and keep on swimmin'.


Candy, cake, cookies, sugar, my Saint Bernard dog, rainy days, baseball games, the ocean, Kansas.

OCD, stress, guilt, sadness, panic, feeling like I'm failing, worry, hate, beverages that have turned room temperature, throat infections, cat food, traffic.


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January 20, 2011, 3:40 pm
Thanks for commenting on my blog! I see that you do stand-up comedy. I've wanted to do that. Sometimes humor helps me when nothing else can :)

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September 30, 2010, 1:48 pm
Welcome to the tribe.!

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It is possible to learn to live successfully with ocd
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September 29, 2010, 7:56 pm
cool picture...

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The only thing you have to fear is fear itself... AND SPIDERS.
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September 29, 2010, 7:56 pm
why thank you so much...I listed a bunch of them so everyone can see and maybe it will make other people not feel alone...

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The only thing you have to fear is fear itself... AND SPIDERS.
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September 29, 2010, 5:33 pm
welcome to the tribe...

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Johnny Cash, Elliot Smith, Loretta Lynn, Belle and Sebastian, The Swell Season, Neutral Milk Hotel, Page France, Biggie Smalls, The Temptations, Neil Young, Leonard Cohen, Donovan, Bob Dylan, Jenny Lewis, Joni Mitchell, Billie Holiday, Mates of State, Feist, Fort King.

The People of Paper, The Sparrow, Wuthering Heights, Pride and Prejudice.

Butch Cassidy and the Sundance Kid, The Squid and the Whale, About Schmidt, In America, Badlands, The Fisher King, Up, The Shining, True Grit, An Affair to Remember.

Making movies, watching movies, writing, watching bad TV, reading, traveling, road trips, eating Memphis BBQ, singing, playing guitar, listening to music, talking to strangers, painting, playing with my dog, swimming, white water rafting.

January 19, 2011, 9:49 pm




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