Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD)

I have been told i am the most lovable crazy person, (i am not sure if that is a back-handed compliment or not),I can be amusing to those around me and I tend to be high-strung, and hyper at times. I obsess over my appearance, my intelligence, my capabilities as compared to other people,so basically I am insecure as sh*t, and I tend to be self-absorbed.Sounds super hot, i know. But that side is balanced with a pretty fun,silly, super caring person. So there u go. I got on here because i am exhausting my friends with my obessiveness, and I need to talk to those that understand.I don't know that I have obsessive-compulisve disorder exactly, but I can relate. I was diagnosed with anorexia 11 years ago, it was really bad. I was hospitalized at 75 pounds at 5'5 when I was 18. I was so obsessed with food, and my weight, and my appearance. I still am but not like that. It drives me insane the thoughts I have about myself. I am overly critical of  myself, and want everything about me to be perfect. I know that is not possible, but my thoughts won't stop about it. I have been off and on prozac for about 8 years. It has worked the best for me. (tried paxil-hated it, celexa-good but not as good as prozac)Prozac helps me to be more relaxed. I hope that being on here can help. I hope that I fit in here, because I don't know a place like this for eating disorders.

Laughing so hard my stomach hurts,goin on tangents,talking(a lot),Food(prob.too much),sunny weather,goin on vacations(can't wait to go to vegas!)All my wonderful friends,and my man(he is so awesome), my adorable son(this is in no particular order,by the way)MONEY(wish i had more of it)my family, proZac, my doctor.........

feeling neurotic and crazy(so sometimes myself), stupid and rude people, grey,cold weather,riding in the car with somebody when i am not the one driving(AAHH!scary,lol)so on that note, panic attacks.Beyonce(i don't know why but she really annoys me)that new commmercial, "let me upgrade" such a sell-out. She did that commercial for more money?uggh.i hate that damn commercial too.Look, going on a tangent already!!!I am sure i have more dislikes but this is good enough.

lots of stuff, i don't feel like writing it all down.But definitely not Beyonce.oh yeah, and i love eighties music.

non-fiction

anything funny or psychological thrillers (the movie copycat was pretty good)

Going to school, working as a bartender, taking care of my son, so I pretty much have no time for hobbies.