it has taken me awhile to decide what i should write here, but i have decided to not hold anything back.. so here it is. My name is Jineen and currently i live in florida.. im from washington/oregon but for now im here. its a nice change in ways since its the complete opposite. I am someone always up for change and it seems i am never satisfied in one place very long. I spent most of my teenage years hitch hiking,meeting random people, partying, and being extremly careless... i have to say i do miss it.At some age you have to grow up and i knew i didnt want to be like others i know.I never had a serious relationship until i was 18. When i was 14 years old i was diagnosed with mild tourettes syndrome and at the time i thought it was pretty awesome but its actually the hardest thing i have had to deal with.It really annoys me when people think its only cursing. I then was told i had severe ocd and along with that came ALOT of anxiety. Constant thoughts and uncontrollable shouts seemed to take over all my time. i then became pregnant at 18 and got into a relationship which lasted 4 years but during the whole time my anxiety got worse. I took up and moved to fl 3 years ago and left everyone i knew and everything i had behind. I started getting really bad panic attacks and was extremley depressed. My anxiety would be so bad id fall to the floor and i couldnt move.i wished i didnt exsist but i knew i had to do something if not for myself for my child. Right now my anxiety is okay.. but it always is for awhile. Social anxiety is probably the worse because it has really held me back from enjoying the simple things life offers. But anyways, i try and stay positive knowing there is a reason for it all. I love people, anything outdoors, and different. Im a lover not a fighter (unless its called for) exploring,traveling,learning. i just want to experience it all. im not that different, actually i think im a little special:)
www.myspace.com/neen2k
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