Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD)

My name is Bree (short for Breanna)
Im half Aussie, half Croatian, and I was born and have lived in Australia for all my life.


I never knew what was going on, and neither did my parents. I got depressed and was belted for all the rituals I did. And I couldn't control them.
Myt parents used to mock and imitate me and my rituals. It hurt SO bad. That made me depressed also.
Some of the rituals I did was counting things, having lucky/bad numbers, I knocked things with my knuckle constantly, and if there was any kind of noise when I did so I would become very stressed out and have to keep doing it until it was right, I looked up, I didn't like anyone touching me. I didn't like CHANGE.
I had to have things in order, and in the right place in my room, etc.
I had to look under plates, I didn't really like to throw anything away because I felt they had "feelings", didn't like to hear the word "blood", I had to touch things in certin places, a certain amount of times, I sometimes made funny noises.
I not only had rituals which I could do anywhere and any time, I also had rituals just specifically for certain things, like brushing teeth, hair, sitting down, etc. Even the most simple thing, getting into bed, was really hard for me. My rituals would come and go, and I would also get new ones.
I had so many other rituals, I'm not even going to bother listing them all.

Eventually my mum and dad decided to get help for me. I saw a phyciatrist called Kathy for two years.
I have finished seeing Kathy and mostly have OCD under control and I'm also still on medication, and most likely will be for a while yet.


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Horses, Dogs, animals, art, playing piano, hockey

My two horses Hula Lady and her beautiful filly Lena.
My mum and dad bought me Hula, and people think, as I've been told, that they hoped that just by having a horse would stop my OCD. Sure, it made me happy and OCD more bearable, but it didn't change anything.
Eleven months after Hula was bought she had a completely unexpected foal. Mum and dad made me choose which of the horses I would keep. It was hard, because like I've said before, I didn't like CHANGE. I ended up selling Hula. About a year later my mum made me sell Lena. It was pretty heart-breaking. It also didn't help with my moods.
Since then my mum has gotten rid of my best mate, Coco, a purebred Kelpie whom I loved with all my heart. Since then I cannot sleep, I amdepressed, I find it hard to trust anyone, OCD has become a problem for me again and it takes all my strength to fight it. It's also really hard to stay positive.
So, now I get comfort from not my mum but my mums friends who are pretty much on my side. They are great, loving people and everyone needs a special person in their lives.








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I am really scared of SPIDERS! *ARGH*
I dislike people who make a big deal of things.
LIARS
People who pretend to be someone else, and can't be themselves.

I read A LOT.. I even sometimes get told off by my parents for reading so much.. Imagine that; A teenager gettng TOLD OFF for reading!

Harry Potter, Inheritance Cycle, House of Night series, Twilight series, Maximum Ride series, A Horse Called Elvis, Tomorrow When the War Began series, Deltora Quest, Rowan of Rin, The keys to the Kingdom series, Dairy Queen, Wicked Lovely, Charlotte and the Starlet, Sleeper Code,

Eragon
Harry Potter movies
Death at a Funeral
Bring It On 3- All Or Nothing
Pirates of the Carribean
Jackass
Minutemen
Flicka
December Boys
You Don't Mess With The Zohan

I love to draw, paint, etc.
I love playing Hockey, my team got to state finals.
I read a LOT.
I love to listen to music, mainly on my MP3/ Ipod.

I live for horses. Not only do they make me feel great but my OCD is less of a problem when I'm around them.
Some people that don't know about my OCD talk to me like I'm slow, or stupid. Or worse, crazy. But I'm not, and it's great to meet people that understand exactly how I fel.

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