Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD)

I don't know how to start, what to say. English is not even my main langauge. Spell check helps me a lot. And Google too.
I don't have amazing or pretty words. My life is very simple, I would say boring. Wake up, deal, and sleep.
I'm just like you or smaller. Smaller.
I'm not perfect. I'm not always happy. I'm not always smiling. I cry and think a lot.
But one day I got tired.
Tired of fighting.
Exausted.
I couldn't live like that anymore.
No, I didn't try suicide, or anything like that.

On March 7, 2010 I accepted Jesus as my Savior.

Probally, as you read that, you're thinking: "Yeah? Ok,Fine and...?"

Right. I'm not the most positive person ever, I'm not like a self help book,
I don't think of rainbows and bunnies.

But, He loves me.
Me.
I still can't grasp or undertand the greatness of His love.
But I try.
He's given me the hope I desperately searched for.

Oh! I didn't get cured and happy the next day after I accepted Him.
No.
I thought of "What did I get myself into?"
But I belived, I had faith- small, tiny, but it was there.
Because, if He didn't help me, who could?
No one.

People think that when you accept Jesus, your life isntantly becomes roses and happiness.
Maybe.
But I'm being honest, it didn't happen to me.

But-
There's always a "but".

OCD got better, most compultions went away.
He's shown me His Power.
His Spirit.
Bit by bit.
It's like a new life.
He's a shoulder to cry on,
He's Your everything.

And while I type this, I hope you
give Him a chance.
He's always been there waiting for you,
and you know this.

OCD is not your life.
You can overcome it.
He will help you.
Trust Him.

There's a LOT of stuff I need to know,
a lot of work to be done in me.
A lot.

But I just wanted to give you hope,
Hope in Him.
He would NOT let you fall
if you come to Him.
He's faithful.

And He loves YOU.
Little, simple, complicated, OCD,
lovely, messed up,
YOU.
YOU.
He LOVES you.

GOD. And how awesome He is to all of us. When you're reading the Bible and you find that verse that was exactly what you needed in that moment. Inspiring moments. Smiles. Laughter. Quotes. Movie nights. Popcorn. Mornings. Dawns. Itunes. Oreos.Peanut Butter & Nutella. Dog The Bounty Hunter.The Secret Life of the American Teenager.Bones.Glee. SpongeBob and the Fairly OddParents. Standing in the rain with my eyes closed. Spending time with my brothers. When my niece and nephew call me by "titi"(auntie in Spanish) instead of my name. Getting a new book. Being with my best friends.

Those earplugs that I can't use anymore. Noises at 6 in the morning. Cold coffee. Fingerprints on the Ipod. (I'M COOL WITH THEM NOW) Butterfly designs. Insects, specially spiders. Low batteries. Talking on the phone. Crime shows at night. Seeing loose teeth.

Tenth Avenue North. Addison Road. Flyleaf. Lifehouse. Jimmy Needham.

Bible, though I only recently accepted God, and I don't understand a lot of things. Rick Warren's Purpose Driven Life. Sarah Dessen's. A Walk to Remember. And I'm currently reading The Last Song.

Transformers & Revenge of the Fallen. A Walk to Remember.

Reading, Watching tv, YouTube, listening to music, taking pictures, editing pictures and looking at nature.


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